Teacher's Pet Posted September 9, 2006 Posted September 9, 2006 Last night was a turning point for me in my recovery. A very positive one. I've been talking to this girl online for about 2 weeks now. Mid 20's, lives in my area, very cute, and very cool. She told me that she and her friends go out to clubs to watch local rock bands, and thought it would be cool if I joined them. I LOVE watching a good cover band, being a former member of one myself. I was very hesitant at first, knowing that going to certain local clubs on certain nights might bring me face to face with B..... Something I'm really not ready for emotionally, but a fear I have to face. Even though I've had dates since my breakup, I really haven't had many opportunities to just MAKE FRIENDS and hang out like I used to. So last night, I went. I got there a few minutes before she and her friends did. There were 4 of them altogether, 4 cute, sweet, rock-n-roll chicks (just what this old guy likes! lol)..... We watched the band (a metal/rock cover band...very good, actually), and drank.... .....and drank..... And we were dancing, and having fun, and taking lots of pictures (I guess that's a chick thing), and it didn't take long to feel "accepted" by them. It felt so good to have a taste of "the bad me" (see the whole bad vs good post elsewhere on here) back..... I managed to flirt with all 4 of them (though 2 of them have boyfriends lol), and just had a LOT of fun. I know they liked me, too, because they kept asking me to come out again to meet the rest of their friends, and even said they's try to "hook me up" with one of their other friends (the girl I was talking to probably relayed my story to them...she's coming out of a bad marriage right now, so she's not looking for anything but friends for now...).... We stayed at the club until closing time... We were hanging out in the parking lot afterwards, and 2 of the girls said they had to go to the bathroom. The bouncer wouldn't let anyone back in the club, so they started squirming a little. One of them suggested they run to the bushes to pee. Being the gentleman (though I had to pee, too), I offered to wait at a "safe distance" to let them take care of business, then I would go, too. There were a lot of people in the parking lot, so I wanted to make sure they were safe and had SOME privacy..... one of J's (ok, we'll give her an initial!) friends grabbed my arm and said "Just come on, you have to pee, too, it's cool." and dragged me INTO THE BUSHES with them..... What happened next is a moment for all ages. I went to pee behind a bush with 4 attractive girls. Can we say......"stage fright"? It was the one of the most awkward moments of my life. Awkward, but classic. I faced one way and umm...tried to do it, while the girls just giggled, and peed. I COULDN'T DO IT. I was slightly embarrassed (I don't think more than 1 woman has ever even come close to seeing my genitals at any given moment, except for one unfortunate beach incident), yet completely turned on. I couldn't let on that I was either embarrassed OR turned on, so I did the whole show (right down to "the shake" - Mel Brooks fans know what I mean!). Meanwhile, these girls didn't care that I was right there, and basically, got an eyeful, without even really trying (or wanting to! LOL) We all hugged and kissed (cheeks, don't get excited, people!), and drove off. Except me. I ran back to go pee...well, after things, umm..settled down. On the way home, I thought to myself, "I'm back!" I really think I'm getting better, finally. Last night was a big step in getting over B. B would NEVER let me pee with her in a bush. Come on, doing that with someone you actually LOVE? How cool would that have been....and kinda kinky, too! B is very traditional. She needs a bathroom and complete privacy. No fun. And now I'm realizing that, even using public urination as a bad example, that I was missing a lot because I was in a less-than healthy relationship. I know it was less than healthy, because what else can you call a relationship that, when it ended, made me afraid to even just go hang out? Now I don't have to worry about hanging out. In any sense of the term. -tPEE
jgaz3124 Posted September 9, 2006 Posted September 9, 2006 LOL wow thats great!!! Well good luck to you and it gives me hope that I can move on also.
superconductor Posted September 9, 2006 Posted September 9, 2006 except for one unfortunate beach incident OK, TP, thanks a lot. Now I've got coffee sprayed all over my keyboard, via my nose. Congrats, dude! Good on ya!
Author Teacher's Pet Posted September 9, 2006 Author Posted September 9, 2006 *heads off to work, humming I love it when you call me BIG Poppa.....* heh -tp
AriaIncognito Posted September 9, 2006 Posted September 9, 2006 I hope you dont expect Mollyanna and I to pee with you in some bush when we meet up next week LOL. I agree with the openness thing. Last night I peed in front of D and he seemed like he didn't know if he should be facing me or not. It was kinda funny. I was in the dark anyway. I didn't really see the big deal. I have done that in front of other men i've been with. I wont do the other side in front of someone cuz ew lol. You definitely need a level of being yourself and just plain being comfortable around someone you're seeing or want to see. Glad you're finding your way out of the dark, TP. Looking forward to the 17th... ;-) Jennifer aka - FW
Mollyanna Posted September 9, 2006 Posted September 9, 2006 Yeah I am totally not peeing in front of you guys. I don't even want anyone to HEAR me pee, even boyfriends. lol
loveinlife Posted September 10, 2006 Posted September 10, 2006 Good job TP, I bet you are glad you had a great time. Tonight, I will be going clubbing. This time will be a girl's birthday, so there will be a lot girls that I don't know. I hope I will have an awesome time too. Take Care. Best Wishes
Author Teacher's Pet Posted September 10, 2006 Author Posted September 10, 2006 Thanks, guys :) I've been feeling much better the last couple of days.. I just finished a BUSY bartending shift (yes, my bar gets packed on Saturday afternoons....all the local alcoholics come out of hiding!).., but I'm going back in a little while to see a band play there, and some of my friends will be showing up..... And maybe we'll all take a nice pee afterwards OMG I'm a perv!! hehehe FW...DS...can't wait! -tp "SB"
Author Teacher's Pet Posted September 10, 2006 Author Posted September 10, 2006 Remember... The bushes are your friend! (no, this was not a political opinion lol) -tp
Author Teacher's Pet Posted September 10, 2006 Author Posted September 10, 2006 Tonight, I will be going clubbing. This time will be a girl's birthday, so there will be a lot girls that I don't know. I hope I will have an awesome time too. Hey bro.... Wanna compare notes from last night? lol Get any? hehe *looks around* Oh, hi girls. -tp
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