kaeferman Posted September 1, 2006 Posted September 1, 2006 Hello everybody here, I am in need of some support... I started posting on this site in June when I was in trouble with my NOW ex-GF since last Saturday. I decided to brake up with her and I did so but this is hurting so much…I still love her, but I didn’t like how things were going. We started our relationship 4 years ago when she was 15 and I was 18. A lot of things happened during this time and I think we were doing really good. She broke up with me last year and after 14 days she came back to me. I am thinking she is too young and confused about life… but I don’t like paying for that!! Problems really started late last year when she finished school. I found out she was totally drunk at a party and she cheated me with another guy. I was really mad and instead of braking up with her I also cheated her with another girl… and things moved forward. Back in June (when we broke up for the 2nd time) I found out she was drunk at a bar and this time she only flirted with a friend of her. We had a hard discussion and she ended up telling me she needed some time alone. I was so mad at her that I told her I had been with this other girl. I really screwed it! Great, I leave. About a week later I got a phone call from her. She wanted to meet me. So we met. She ends up saying she wants to brake up with me. We continue the conversation and at some point she starts crying and tells me she wants to be with me forever and that she didn’t really want to leave me. Weird!! So, this being like that I thought that I needed to change things because I wanted to be the one in top of the relationship. I couldn’t stand her having doubts about us all the time. I started giving her more space and the more space I gave her the more she called me. She also mentioned being jealous with a female friend of mine that I was seeing more frequently. Things were going great. But not so good for her maybe? One night she told me she wanted me to show her more love, she tells me she loves me and needs me with her. A couple days after that it was my birthday, she woke up at 7am to prepare the best breakfast I ever had and came to my house with it. She also wrote me a letter where she mentioned how happy she was with me and that she wanted to continue life with me. But she also mentioned she still hated me a bit because of me cheating her… And then, about a week ago I found out that 3 days after my birthday she cheated me with one of her friends… one night only, she was drunk, I guess not much happened (no sex of course). There was no contact with this guy after that. I am sure… it was just that. But I went to her place and asked her about this, I couldn’t stand it anymore, she first denied it then accepted it. I told her “well, then this is the end”. She didn’t tell me anything, she was like mad at me, she didn’t tell she was sorry or anything and accepted that we should end this. Then I leave and that’s it. End of the story. She didn’t contact me after that and neither did I. Same night I went out with some friends, got drunk and ended up with a girl at a bar. Great, but this didn’t make me feel any better. People, I can’t understand this!! Why is she behaving this way? Why does she tell me she is so happy with me and 3 days after that she does that with this guy? Is there any way to fix all this mess? I am thinking if there is a way then a lot of time will have to pass… She looks like she is confused, many times she told me she felt less than me (I am some kind of successful guy, I have my own company although I am only 22 years old…) and she also mentioned she wanted to be someone by her own. I hate this situation, I know I could find somebody else soon… I know it’s a mess but I still love her. I want to be with her not with someone else... But I also feel like I am always giving her everything and in some way she doesn’t appreciate it. Instead of that, she feels “less”. Help please!! What do you people think? Sorry for the long post and thank you!!
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