RedRoseUpYourNose Posted September 1, 2006 Posted September 1, 2006 Hi all! I dated this man for about 3 months. Our first few dates were awesome but my gut feeling was telling me something was not right. OK, first of all he is a musician. That's a good one. On the road one month out of the three. My work took me out of town for 3 weeks, so that leaves us with a month and some to get to know one another. I wish he had to leave again to keep my illusion. Even though I know that we were not good together, that I never felt good being around him, that I never trusted him, that he has too much baggage, that he is hung up on ALL of his exes who treated him poorly, I was willing to give it a chance. I'm not sure why. I think it felt good to have someone to look forward to, even though now that I'm thinking about it I never really did look forward to seeing him. Wow, I think I'm confused. Well here is why I feel bad. On Sunday, after he came back from a weekend that he invited me to but left without me, he went to his friend's celebration. I wasn't invited. I had had enough at that point. We had 'the' talk and he gave me every excuse you will find in "He's just not that into you". And I mean EVERY SINGLE ONE. I was laughing my lungs out! We got mad at each other and decided to finish talking on the next day. After playing phone tag for two days I got voicemail from him stating that his ex gf had died some year ago or something and that it's getting to him. I got the whole "I really care about you and I really need to talk to you, please call me back". I tried to call, no answer. I only called because I felt for him even though I feel that he was just wanting a pity f**k. I broke it off by sending an email. A polite one, not explaining or blaming anything/anyone. I don't think he gives a damn about not having me around, but I feel selfish and guilty doing this when he just found out about his ex. I really don't feel like dealing with his drama anymore and only be there when he wants me to be there. So I think I did the right thing - for me. Maybe I did the right thing for him, too, by setting him free? It seems like he has enough to deal with right now. Tell me, is this selfish of me?
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