Guest Posted August 31, 2006 Posted August 31, 2006 How do you get out? Is it possible??? I have been involved w/my MM for 3 yrs. During this time we have lived together, went NC & nothing seems to work. I will admit that the passion of the R has dwindled to say the least. right now we exchange e-mails & thats about it. He is back home & sometimes tell me how great it is & other times tells me how horrible. We have both attempted to move on with our lives, I dated a guy for the past year of this A & actually ended up getting engaged & MM & W had another baby I broke my engagement off, I am just not ready to take that step & honestly incapable of loving 2 people at once. Right now I just feel stuck. NC kills me but every nonchalant e-mail makes me want to throw up! I know this is going no where. I have done nothing but waste time & grow to be insecure w/myself & obsessed with this relationship. We have just exchanged e-mails for a week or 2 after a couple weeks of NC- this episode of NC started after W found out AGAIN! She has pretty much known of me since day 1 But for some reason or another really thinks I go away?! This time is so diff from the other times we break NC usually we are off FULL BLAST this time its very BLAH!!!! I want to be able to stay calm & sickened by his actions Is anyone else in this situation? In an A somewhat out of obligation & the comfort of it??? I know this is very scattered sorry!
kymberann Posted August 31, 2006 Posted August 31, 2006 this time its very BLAH!!!! I think you have answered your own question! With each time, it may even get more BLAHER! Even though you are still feeling mixed emotions, your answer with what to do will eventually come to you and you will know what to do! I hope you don't want to continue to live a BLAH life, always wondering what's going to happen next with this MM while still feeling stuck. You'll get the feeling of having had enough and that will help you move on! Here's to no more insecurities!!! Best!
reneet Posted August 31, 2006 Posted August 31, 2006 How do you get out? Is it possible??? I have been involved w/my MM for 3 yrs. During this time we have lived together, went NC & nothing seems to work. I will admit that the passion of the R has dwindled to say the least. right now we exchange e-mails & thats about it. He is back home & sometimes tell me how great it is & other times tells me how horrible. We have both attempted to move on with our lives, I dated a guy for the past year of this A & actually ended up getting engaged & MM & W had another baby I broke my engagement off, I am just not ready to take that step & honestly incapable of loving 2 people at once. Right now I just feel stuck. NC kills me but every nonchalant e-mail makes me want to throw up! I know this is going no where. I have done nothing but waste time & grow to be insecure w/myself & obsessed with this relationship. We have just exchanged e-mails for a week or 2 after a couple weeks of NC- this episode of NC started after W found out AGAIN! She has pretty much known of me since day 1 But for some reason or another really thinks I go away?! This time is so diff from the other times we break NC usually we are off FULL BLAST this time its very BLAH!!!! I want to be able to stay calm & sickened by his actions Is anyone else in this situation? In an A somewhat out of obligation & the comfort of it??? I know this is very scattered sorry! THAT'S A NO-BRAINER! RUN & DON'T GO BACK!!
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