Guest Posted August 27, 2006 Posted August 27, 2006 I "caught" my SO in at least a EA--denied PA within the past month. Actually, a month ago, I suspected, it was confirmed last Friday. He of course denied any affair. EA/PA--however, has told this OW that they are to have NC. Tonight, he informed me that he was going out for drinks with his boss. (His boss' SO has a terminal illness, so is in need of some support/time out). I was leery, because of still feeling raw, but what could I do? I said have fun! He called me on the way out, and again when they were driving to a different bar. He will call me on the way home. He is making an effort, and checking in--but, I am still just weary of feeling this way. Sick, scared, afraid to trust where he is and who he is with. The OW knows about me. He could be with her, and just calling to appease me. I know that I need to have faith, and it has only been a week....but when will I ever feel sure again. I have never been the type of woman who would deny her boyfriend a night out before. I need them with my friends also--but I almost wanted to forbid him to go tonight. Why tonight, when we are just starting to put the pieces back? I needed him too! Am I being selfish? Should I have spied to check on his whereabouts and who he is with. He told me where he was going both times--but he could have lied, he would never think that I would actually drive the 20 minutes to check up on him--especially at midnight. Feedback welcome. Thanks!
LakesideDream Posted August 27, 2006 Posted August 27, 2006 Next time, (and the time after) put on that overcoat, and make the drive.
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