Pepsimaywest Posted August 22, 2006 Posted August 22, 2006 I had my first real long term commitment of 1 1/2 years to a girl that suddenly came to a halt. I can describe our entire relationship as very stressful. Even though I came to love this girl and have deep feelings , likewise with her, we always had alot of conversations for the sake of our relationship. They were always about how Jealous shes was when I wasnt with her because she never knew what I was doing, say for example at work, and I always reassured her that of course im committed to her but she never accepted it. So teh consequence of her jealousy was that she spent alot of time making me jealous, such as saying things that would hurt me or flirt with other guys, so then I would do the same to her. No matter how childish it sounds we always had our talks and figured things out. I can say I was happiest with her when I didnt have to constantly think if she was cheating on me... anyway things were going very good for the better part of the year and we were really involved in each others lives. The I love you's were always there and even some talk about moving out together and starting a life. However all of a sudden the day she starts her period, she starts to think that we should go seperate ways. So the day after a happy day with her the phone calls stopped and no emails. Obviously I know whats going on so I call and then get the bad news. I wasnt really crushed because it felt like all the stress melted away, however the only thing is that how can a person who says they love you more than anything, someone I found a sort of trust with and had built a pretty good relation with decide in one day that things have to be changed. Now she gave me the whole work, and studies excuse which is the lamest of all. I had always found timer for her when things with work and education got tough because i think life has to be balanced. I always did alot for her to show i cared, such as giving massages, making breakfast, going to the hospital with her, and other times when she above all else needed me, and no I didnt do it because i was scared to lose her. Im just bewildered by the fact that she can suddenly change my life like that, like the relationship meant nothing. I feel like giving her **** or go on a real rebound and make her know about it but it wont solve anything. Could it be her time of the month feelings, like she feels she cant trust me anymore and its hurting to much, or did she find another guy that I dont know about, because the sex was lessening. I feel she did somehting that she can't tell me and is just trying to rid her guilt. Sex is good but it can also be a real killer. So im moving on talking to all my friends again and even other exes who are now friends, even gone out to drink away the so called sorrow, but trust me im not broken down just really ashamed that I had trusted her with my so called love. All I need is a little help with this to ease some pain, I have much to look foward to in life right now and this seems to be the thorn in my side.
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