Waterfall Posted August 22, 2006 Posted August 22, 2006 My Story I am ashamed to call this “my story”, I was one of those trusting, faithful, honest people who would never, ever, ever dream of being unfaithful and guess what I was I am married just a year and feel I have made a big mistake by getting married. I know my husband was unfaithful to me a couple of times just before we got married, although he never admitted it, but I was so desperately in love with him I chose to ignore all the rumours and chose him, I came close to losing a number of friends over him. I should have walked away then, because I know now I lost respect for him (as he never owned up) and trust for him. However, I didn’t and I married him. I had my doubts all along, we have grown to become best friends rather than husband and wife, we never have sex and rarely have affection even on our honeymoon we fought all the time. We have grown very far apart, he works a lot and I used to cry at home begging him to come home, and gradually I pulled myself together and went out and made new friends and hobbies etc… It sounds corney but I genuinely found that I liked myself and other people liked me. A couple of months into my marriage I went away with a group of friends, the group that told me about my husband cheating on me, things had been strained for a long time. The weekend was fantastic we sorted out our differences I admitted to being very unhappy and they were just glad I wasn’t fighting it anymore. I met a guy that weekend, and we chatted for ages, I am not going to go into details but we connected something I never felt before. He was due to get married this month, but called off his wedding a week after that trip as he felt if he could have such a connection with me than he was not happy with his fiance, I really admire him for that because he truly loved her. He lives a long distance away so I have only seen him a couple of times, but we talk everyday and as a result our “relationship” has become very strong. I truly think regardless of the other man my marriage is over, and I have to walk away but I just cannot bring myself to do it to my husband at the end of the day he is a good man, he has a very carefree outlook on life, I think that is why we are so different he never talks to me, I mean really talks to me, I don’t get any emotional support from him and as I am getting older I feel like I need it more and more, when I try and talk about how I feel I get a very cutting reply. Anyway I am going off track again, I am living each day in limbo, one day I decide to be strong and walk away the next I look at my husband and think yeah I could live with you forever and love you but I wouldn’t have the chemistry it would be more as friends/brothers and sisters. I also feel I have done what I did for a reason and there is no going back for me, how could I do this to someone I supposedly love. I just wondered is there anyone else out there who feels like this. Thanks for listening…
newbby Posted August 22, 2006 Posted August 22, 2006 the only advice i have is to really make sure that you are leaving for yourself, and not the om. you dont know the guy very well, he may be lying about breaking things off with his fiance...
Author Waterfall Posted August 22, 2006 Author Posted August 22, 2006 I want to leave if my marriage is over, not for the om however, I have met his ex-fiance and it wasnt pleasent so no he isnt lying he is the most genuine person I didnt think they existed.
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