snowflake02 Posted August 21, 2006 Posted August 21, 2006 Everyday I feel so so depressed...and its getting worse by the day. I hate my job, I have trust issues with my bf, dont really have that many friends to talk to, I get so sensitive and emotional about the smallest things...Im always tired, have headaches and have no energy...The thing is I know I have potential to be really happy, its like im self destructing myself on my own.. I have started seeing a therapist recently. He says I have dysthymic depression (chronic depression) My bf doesnt believe I suffer from depression and thinks that I have nothing to be depressed about and that I just need to "snap out of it". He doesnt understand so infront of him I try to be happy even when im not...I feel like i need to keep a happy face or else ill lose him... Is it better to be honest and tell him the truth? I dont want to drag him down with me because in the past when I told him i was sad he got really frustrated. He says he hates it when im down...I hate it too but I really cant help it. Its true I really dont have anything major to be sad about. I hate myself for feeling this way all the time. I cry nearly everyday now because I hate feeling this way. Im thinking about moving out of the country and starting fresh on my own in a completely new environment. Will that be just running away from my problems? Im so confused about what to do..
britchick Posted August 22, 2006 Posted August 22, 2006 You are doing the right thing by getting help for your depression now you need to give your self time. I may be wrong but it seems that when some men are confronted with a depressed SO they feel helpless as they can't 'fix' the problem for you, which is what they like to do. My guess is that he is struggling as well. As for the moving away, it's probably not a good idea until you're feeling stronger. Good luck.
mattea Posted August 22, 2006 Posted August 22, 2006 i can definitely empathize as i go through similar depressions. sometimes it is worse than others, but there seems to be a general malaise, with no real reason! i am extremely sensitive too. i agree that you're doing the right thing getting help to work through your feelings. as for the job, maybe you can find ways to make the one you have better or maybe you can move on to another job or to schooling that will help you get a more satisfying job? as for the trust issues, talk them out with your counselor. if they are your own issues, take ownership and work through them. if your b/f is doing things that make it harder for you to trust, talk to him. try not to make it worse by beating yourself up about being depressed. it's really hard, i know, to feel low energy and down. i've done the same thing - trying to act happy and fun to keep someone from leaving. i know how tempting it can be, but i don't think it's a good idea. he needs to know how you really feel and accept you the way you are. trying to be/feel something you aren't/don't is not sustainable. this isn't to say that things won't be brighter for you in the future, just that in my opinion it's best to be real/honest.
Guest Posted August 23, 2006 Posted August 23, 2006 I know exactly what you mean. I struggle with the same things. I started taking Saint John's Wort and it seems to help. Just dont take the really potent ones with hyperforin. I take Natrol and NO this isnt a spammer. I notice a difference. I tend to be more energetic and out of my "self-consciousness" But me and the bf still have problems and he also has difficulty with my "moods." Dont take SJW if you are on other meds though, esp birth control as it makes other meds lose their potency.
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