How To Stop The Tears

[lostmike]

Tricia,

Hopefully you are still checking in on this post. So, after calling her and her asking me to go to lunch, I IM'd her tonight just saying hi. No reply for 3 hours, then I find a link to some game she used to like and send it to her saying "I know you're gonna hate me for this, but..." then the link. Anyway, point being is that she still hasn't spoken to me since the other night when we spoke. You said give it a day or two and I have. This is the 2nd time she's done this. It's like she wants to see me and tells me to call her anytime, then she just kinda disappears for a bit. Is she playing games with me? After 6 years with her, I have to say she is not that kind of person, but my feelings are out there on an emotional roller coaster. What do I do? I know it's only been 2 or 3 days, but geez. What's a guy gotta do to get a girl to call? Am I not being aggressive enough? Am I being too aggressive (definitely don't think this is the case). It sucks that after 6 years of spending every day with someone you feel so much like you don't know them, that you have to ask others what they think is on her mind. I mean if anyone should know, it should be me right?

HELP ME TRICIA...please!

Thanks,

Mike:(

[Tricia23]

Hi Mike,

 

I'm really sorry to hear that she is being that way!! You did everything right though. You gave her a few days, but I don't understand why she is being like that. It does seem like she is playing games, and I don't see a need for her to. She should just tell you like it is. I'm sure she will want to talk to you again in a few days. Just try calling her or sending her a text message asking her what happened with the lunch date. I know how hard it is to try and get together with someone and them not returning/answering calls. Just be patient for now. In another few days try to contact her.I'm sure she will come around. I know how difficult it is after all these years of being with someone, they totallt change on you. Thats how I feel now.

 

Thursday was an alright day. I broke down in front of him of course, and I know I should have kept my cool, but seeing him and knowing hes not mine just breaks my heart all over again. I also caught him lieing to me twice about certain things, so now its hard for me to trust him. We also ended up hanging out Friday night and that was fun. We acted like we were together. Holding hands, kissing etc...So I don't get him. I guess he just wants his freedom, but that i'll never understand. I just wanna hit him and maybe that will slap some reality into him....

 

 

I wanted to see him tonite (Saturday) but he had plans to hang with his boys....So of course I got upset and made a big deal about it. I just wanted to be with him so bad, I didn't care. So I guess I blew it now. Honestly I'm just to the point of saying I Don't Care.....He said he doesn't want any other girls nor is he seeing any, nor does he want too. Me im just gonna start going out to have fun. He can seriously kiss my ass. I'm so fed up with this all. I mean I'll still talk to him, but This is what I did to him and now he's doing it to me.....It hurts but I guess ill just be me and concentrate on me now......

 

I'll keep you informed if anything "Exciting" does happen (highly doubtful)....Keep me update on you as well...Honestly just give it more time, I am so sick of even saying that, but in order for things to work out, thats what we have to do right??.

 

 

Wishing You Nothing, but Luck......

 

 

Tricia.......

[lostmike]

Tricia,

Hey, thanks for responding back. I'm good, just very confused. I mean she makes it a point to tell me everytime I talk to her that I can "call anytime, so whenever you feel like calling, just pick up the phone and call. Seriously, whenever!" and also her saying she wants to see me and we can hang out. What the crap? I mean she opens the door a little so I give a little too and then get nothing in return. I am so confused.

I would like to just forget this whole thing and move on, but it hurts so much and I don't want to walk away if there's a chance. I think there might be, but I definitely think she's still confused. I know, I know, I KNOW that as soon as I meet someone I'm gonna be interested in, she's gonna be like, "I want you back". I've had that happen before and it sucks worse at that point. Talk about being confused.

So, now, I'll give Jess distance and let her make the next move...and she will. Then when I make my move, she kind of disappears. WTF??? Any insight? She says shes not seeing anyone nor is she interested in anyone and I think I can believe her. Her dad sent me an email saying that he'd like to see me and I can come by anytime, etc... (she lives with her parents), so that kinda strikes me strange. Also, I think she wants to see me because the last couple of times we talked she was asking me if I wanted to see some movies she had copies of and would I like to borrow them? I mean this comes out of the blue, so I just assume it means she is trying to find a way to see me. ArgggghhhhH!! SO CONFUSED!!

Anyway, we BOTH need to just go out and have a good time and whatever Jess and Eric do, we'll figure it out as it happens.

I hope school is going well for you and you like your classes. I miss school so much. Are you in a sorority? I was in a fraternity here at the University of Florida (Go Gators!). My fraternity is Pi Kappa Alpha. It was the best time of my life! I loved college. It shows by how long I was there!

Anyway, thank you so much Tricia for your help. It has helped me being able to talk to you. I laughed the other day because I seem to have made/found a friend in the most unlikeliest place! Glad to have had the opportunity to share with you!

Well, keep me informed and keep in touch!

Your online friend (my first!),

Mike B.

PS - If you're on myspace, look me up...

http://www.myspace.com/mikepike1868

[Tricia23]

Hey Mike,

 

I just added you to my friends on myspace..... If you look on my page, on my slideshow there are pictures of Eric and I...Anyways, it really seems like we are going through the exact same thing except with you its a girl, and with me its a guy...I guess we both just need to give them some space. As hard as it is, thats the only way we will know exactly what they are feeling. Eric says that there aren't any girls, nor is he interested and I do believe him, but seriously it drives me nuts thinking about him and where he is and what he's doing. I hate that feeling.

 

Eric says that too "If you need anything call me" So when I do I always break down and cry, and I know he hates when I do that, because it makes him feel bad. Well sorry I can't help it. I've been so sad for the past 3 weeks crying at least once everyday, and I want it to stop. I mean Friday night we hung out, and seriously when we were together, we acted like a couple, holding hands, kissing etc, so my mind is spinning like a merry-go- round with confusion. He keeps tellin me he doesn't want to let me go because of the past, and he wants to work on things, but there could be that chance of his answer being no. Well that doesn't make sense to me, I mean If your trying why would you even have to say no. He said he's not thinking of no now, but who knows anymore.

 

 

If we love them and they realize how much they love us, hopefully soon, something will hit them both like a bolt of lightning and then its smooth sailing there. If your positive and I am then hopefully we can pull through this. I'm not looking for anybody at the moment because I am leaving my options open for him, to see what can happen. I also turned down the modeling job in Californina because I wanted to see if things got better with us. So he knows that. I guess we will just have to be strong for each other and thats all we can do for now.

 

 

It is great talking to you on here. It gives me some hope when I read your replies, and i hope mine do for you.... Always keep in touch and let me know how things are going with you.....

 

 

All The Best...

 

Tricia