Dabda

[Milf629]

What the hell is DABDA you might ask? The stages of Grief I say! I can't quite decide where I am in the cycle, cause I have been bouncing around the different stages sometimes daily!

 

I was definetly in Denial at first, most definetly, I have not revisited that one for at least 2 months, I would say.......

 

Anger oh yeah lots of that, LOTS! I will post in a minute all ym anger, just need to get it out of my system.

 

Bargaining, that was back with the denial, haven't done much of that, although I don't know if throwing myself into work and kids and trying my hardest to ignore the rest counts?

 

Depression, had some heavy days of that, most days I am ok, with only moments of that, they pass now instead of keeping me there in a holding pattern.

 

Aceeptance, yeah I think I bounced between this and anger quite frequently....... I accept what is happening but I am still angry about it.

 

· Denial

· Anger

· Bargaining

· Depression

· Acceptance

 

Angry.......all the reasons why I am angry.....to my soon to be ex........

 

I am angry that I was worth so little effort to you

I am angry that I ever thought marrying you was a good idea

I am angry that you seem to be a - ok with everything as it is

I am angry that someone else someday will reap the benefits of MY pain and suffering

I am angry that you will move on

I am angry that I can't choke you as I often wish I could

I am angry that you are such an enormous POS and I never saw it

I am angry that I feel like garbage to you

I am angry that we aren't already divorced

I am angry that I ever put forth ANY effort in trying to fix this, since all you seemed to do was sit back and watch

I am angry that you are still talking to her and trying to hide it, and still doing god knows what.

I am angry that I care

I am angry that someone else was worth more then what we had

I am angry that you destroyed our family

I am angry that my daughter is struggling with this

I am angry that no matter how well this goes they will be affected

I am angry that you go out and i dont know where

I am angry that I care

I am angry that I cannot go out and get laid, be held by someone else, because I am still married and will keep those vows for as long as they are still there

I am angry that you breathe, that you take oxygen out of my space

I am angry that with your absence as usual more falls on me

I am angry that life isn't harder for you

I am angry that you think I am sooooo stupid

I am angry that you couldn't step up to the plate and be a man

I am angry that I ever lost any respect, worth or love for myself

I am angry that I ever thought and occassionally do still think I ever wasn't good enough

I am angry that I brought two children into this, I never would have had I known the outcome

I am angry that you tell such a pretty sugar coated version of this story

I am angry that I will never be able to sever all ties

I am angry that you want to pretend this wont affect them when you know damn well first hand that it will

I am angry that I have to check the divorced box

I am angry that I will keep your disgusting last name, for the sake of my children

I am angry that I ever did anything out of kindness, that I ever shared precious moments with you, that I ever cared enough to do the right thing whether it was right for me or not

I am angry that I ever dreamed of growing old with you, that I ever had your best interests at heart, that I ever supported you, that I ever wanted you, that I ever thought it was all returned

I am angry that you are soooooo selfish, serving only yourself, doing only what is best for you

I am angry that the finances are unbearable to think about

I am angry that in some sick twisted way you feel jusitfied in doing what you have done, that you say "we grew apart" that anyone for 1 second beleives that

I am angry that you have embarrassed me

I am angry that I did not embarrass you more

I am angry that anyone on this planet has any respect for you, you don't deserve it

I am angry that your still a lying POS

I am angry I can't strangle her too

I am angry that I am referred to as a psycho

I am angry that I will never get the truth I so deserve, angry that I will always want it

I am angry that i may not get to see Karma come back your way

[bluechocolate]

Sometimes I think the last A should stand for apathy.

 

When you get to the point where you just don't care anymore.

 

Maybe it could be DABDAA.