Green Posted August 16, 2006 Posted August 16, 2006 My entire life I’ve been a major procrastinator. I put things off to much and now my life is a mess. I’ve forgotten how to be human, its like I have to fake who I am. I feel like I’m at war with myself, a prisoner in my own body. I look in the mirror and it feels like I’m staring at a complete stranger I don’t recognize my own reflection. I’m not doing any drugs but I’d say what ever has been happening to me over the years is bad enough. I probably am depressed but maybe its something else. I don’t know how to feel anymore, nothing feels real. If I had my way I’d probably just sit around all day watching TV and eating bananas. I’m pretty horrible with women to. I always do something to screw it up sooner or later. I either am to forward or to shy, I can never get it just right. If a girl likes me I usually don’t like her, heck I’ve even later regretted turning a girl down only to miss the window of opportunity. I’ve done this many times. Well that was pretty much a rant what ever you peeps want to say is fine by me...
Tony T Posted August 16, 2006 Posted August 16, 2006 Could be depression, could be low self esteem, could be the result of coming from a dysfunctional family, could be low blood sugar, could be diabetes, could be SAD (seasonal affective disorder), could be heart disease, could be bipolar mood disorder, could be chronic fatigue syndrome, could be mitral valve prolapse, could be bad diet, could be lack of exercise...could be lots of things or a combination of two or more of the above. You need to get your act together. Start eating properly, exercising...basically getting your butt in gear. Start laughing more and focusing on yourself less. Start thinking about the great things in life and not the bad things. Go visit a cemetary this week. Take a note pad. Write down the names of all the people you see having a good time. Then go home, review your notes and see what conclusions you come to. THIS IS IT, BUDDY!!!! Make it work for you. Once you check out, there ain't no having fun...as you will note from your cemetary visit. Start with a visit to a doctor for a full physical. Then go from there. It doesn't get any better than this!!!
magichands Posted August 16, 2006 Posted August 16, 2006 I’m pretty horrible with women to. I always do something to screw it up sooner or later. Later is better - that way you get more experience. Try to relax, and just... be yourself. Start laughing more and focusing on yourself less. Always worked for me. Tony T, you are a LS institution! I like the flavour of your rehabilitation program.
burning 4 revenge Posted August 16, 2006 Posted August 16, 2006 I look in the mirror and it feels like I’m staring at a complete stranger I don’t recognize my own reflection. I’m not doing any drugs but I’d say what ever has been happening to me over the years is bad enough. I probably am depressed but maybe its something else. I don’t know how to feel anymore, nothing feels real. If I had my way I’d probably just sit around all day watching TV and eating bananas. . That's hardcore. That's just too Travis Bickle
Author Green Posted August 16, 2006 Author Posted August 16, 2006 thanks for all the input. I feel a little better today non of those who the hell am I and what am I doing moments yet. I'm trying to get something going with a girl I like hopefully we can hang out before this weekend. This girl is so incredibly hot I'm trying to play it cool but she really scares the **** out of me. I'm not scared of her litteraly I just dont want to have another big fish that got away story because I tried to set the hook to fast if you know what I mean.
FooD2000 Posted August 16, 2006 Posted August 16, 2006 Do you have any anger problems? Before you start trying to meet woman and what not, lets work on you. Like Tony-T was saying, the first step to get out of this slump is start doing the right things. What do you think will make you a better person? You've already stated a few things that you need to remove, "sit around, eating bananas and watching T.V." instead of doing those things, think of things you could be doing that you consider an improvement or productive. As far as women, When your happy with yourself, confident in the path your going... You naturally will be great with woman, Why? Because you yourself will be a happy person who doesn't NEED a girlfriend, has his prioties straight, promoting a sexy confident person. when your mind and body is in the right place, people will pick up on it and you'll be a more desireable person to hang out with, Girl or Guy. Choice is yours, how much do you not want to feel the way you did yesterday, August 16th. In the road of life, their are passengers and their are drivers (i love that quote).
Author Green Posted August 16, 2006 Author Posted August 16, 2006 Do you have any anger problems? I hope not. I haven’t done anything to angry. Before you start trying to meet woman and what not, lets work on you. I'm just horny and if I stopped meeting women I'd feel worse. I gots to try Like Tony-T was saying, the first step to get out of this slump is start doing the right things. What do you think will make you a better person? You've already stated a few things that you need to remove, "sit around, eating bananas and watching T.V." instead of doing those things, think of things you could be doing that you consider an improvement or productive. Tony-T meant well but none of his advice applies to me. I've been to cemeteries and I know life is precious I just having problems being human if that makes any sense which it doesn’t. As far as women, When your happy with yourself, confident in the path your going... You naturally will be great with woman, Why? Because you yourself will be a happy person who doesn't NEED a girlfriend, has his prioties straight, promoting a sexy confident person. when your mind and body is in the right place, people will pick up on it and you'll be a more desireable person to hang out with, Girl or Guy. good points . Choice is yours, how much do you not want to feel the way you did yesterday, August 16th. In the road of life, their are passengers and their are drivers (i love that quote). Very cliche but it works for me thank you for all your input.
britchick Posted August 17, 2006 Posted August 17, 2006 Hi, KMT, if I were you I'd get to a doctor. Everyone's advice is great but that "not feeling real" thing sounds a bit worrying. Do you ever get the feeling that your very detached from your surroundings and that your in a kind of bubble, sort of like watching a film? If so that sounds like quite a serious depression. Not trying to scare you or anything, it's just that once depression gets to that stage it could be really hard for you to recognize because people tend to stop feeling sad and start to feel numb instead. Having the motivation to post on here is probably a really good sign! Actually just re-read your last post, if you're feeling horny, you're probably fine.
Ripples Posted August 17, 2006 Posted August 17, 2006 I’m pretty horrible with women to. I always do something to screw it up sooner or later. Ehehe! Hey, you called me bitch straight off and I don't hold it against you
Author Green Posted August 17, 2006 Author Posted August 17, 2006 Hi, KMT, if I were you I'd get to a doctor. Everyone's advice is great but that "not feeling real" thing sounds a bit worrying. Do you ever get the feeling that your very detached from your surroundings and that your in a kind of bubble, sort of like watching a film? If so that sounds like quite a serious depression. Not trying to scare you or anything, it's just that once depression gets to that stage it could be really hard for you to recognize because people tend to stop feeling sad and start to feel numb instead. Having the motivation to post on here is probably a really good sign! Actually just re-read your last post, if you're feeling horny, you're probably fine. Yeah I’m very weird but I’m good at acting mild mannered. I’m not depressed all the time about being weird, I definitely sort of really was that night but some good things are happening now and I’m feeling better. I’m making new friends in the city I’m living in and I just got a second date with a girl who is better looking then most models very nice too. My main problem isn’t depression I just need to learn to be human. Most of my life I’ve lived in my own world and I’m just trying to enter the so called real world. I read my first post again yes I was sad that night but it was also the truth even when I’m not sad I feel strange and weird going through life. I also kind of did it to get some attention from the British so thank you so much for your replies. Ehehe! Hey, you called me bitch straight off and I don't hold it against you You better not hold it against me it was a quote from a hilarious American movie called “waiting” one of the cooks says it to the new waiter when he walks into the kitchen for the first time. If you are bitch though, and that picture is of you, your one hot bitch which makes it ok by me…
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