What is going on with me?

[jimbeck]

I'm not sure what exactly happened but something did. I was just driving back from work, heard a song on the radio then next thing I know some forgotten memories came pouring back. These memories all have to do with a relationship I had back when. This song about Elvis and Mona Lisa brought it all back, to the point that I could remember her face perfectly and felt like I loved her.

 

However, I never actually loved her. In fact all we had was a short, disapointing relationship. So, it doesn't make any sense to me, the only idea I could think of is that we were supposed to have some great relationship. I remember that we started out with some fanatastic potential but I blew it.

 

At this point in time I'm in an declining relationship. So with that song working on me for three days now, I thought it would be interesting to catch up with the girl that song is so remembered for. Though I haven't actually seen her for maybe two years. There was a short time before that where she came after me when I was unavailable and I did that same thereafter but I kind over did it just a bit.

 

 

I really know nothing of her now, she's 22-23 so she could be married with kids. So with that in mind, would it be at all a bad idea for me an ex boyfriend to even be asking about her? Earlier this year I heard she was deceased so I asked the guy that knows of her and found that he keeps in daily contact with her and he noted that she moved away but she comes back on the weekends. I can't really push it too far since I'm going through a middle man so what can I do, just ask about her, say something like how's Jane doing?

[Outcast]

That's exactly what you do.

[xxrubyredxx]

 

However, I never actually loved her. In fact all we had was a short, disapointing relationship. So, it doesn't make any sense to me....

 

Makes no sense to me either, your post that is.

 

Not being funny, but why do you wish to get back in touch with an ex, whom you say you never loved and that all your relationship was, was a short disappointing one? What are you hoping that the renewed contact with her will bring? What do you think will have changed between you both?

 

I could understand your post if you'd said that you loved this ex and that you'd shared a long, pleasant time together, that you still had feelings for her and cared deeply for her still, etc, etc....

 

At this point in time I'm in an declining relationship.

 

With a girl that you do love I hope

 

Why not try fixing the declining relationship, rather than want to pursue a girl you didn't love?

[jimbeck]

I think love is a strong word, where you have to be together for at least a year, have a couple of hardships and the realationship is as strong as ever. I think it's way over used, I don't know how many times I have a friend tell me they're in love, but then they end up breaking up two days later over something minor. So, I can't say that I actually loved her, but she was my favorite person to be with. Even today, if I could talk with anyone past or present, she'd be in my top three picks.

 

 

It'd just be a shock to see her again. If I would happen to run into her someplace out of the blue I'd probably would end up tripping over my feet at the sight of her. Now on the other hand, if we had some kind of commuications and the we met up somewhere that'd be fine. I'd be curious as to how she would take it. As I said before I blew it the first time around and she got the impression that I didn't really like her, so for me to try to find after all this time, she'd be shocked.

 

 

Now about my current relationship, it's all downhill now. Her and I have been together long enough to know that best we could hope to be is friends, and I'm ok with that.