Brittjean06 Posted August 12, 2006 Posted August 12, 2006 Okay this isn't about missing the ex my ex was honestly crazy and its all coming clear to me that what I thought was Extascy was really roofies. I got really drouzy and passed out..now before this my ex said to me" You'll get yours you just wont remember it "...... I was going to go to the police but he manipulated me in too thinking I was crazy....I had a dream about it last night and I coulden't go back to sleep... I can't believe that it is coming clear to me now but when I was 16 I was so naive and didn't think anything of this.. I want revenge but people say the best revenge is living well... No I want revenge for that honestly I can't even concentrate at work this is really getting to me...Will life give him his fair share :-(?
Teacher's Pet Posted August 12, 2006 Posted August 12, 2006 I'm a firm believer in karma. He'll get his, and you are going to be just fine. Don't be afraid to talk about it, if it helps. We're all here for you! He should consider himself lucky this didn't happen here in Jersey.... We deal with guys like him..umm....well.. ...ever see The Sopranos? That's my backyard. Stay sweet. -tp
Author Brittjean06 Posted August 12, 2006 Author Posted August 12, 2006 thanks man It just sucks not knowing but all the peices fit together. It has just been haunting me I better not have this on my mind when I go in too work today. See he woulden't have raped me he would have gotten other people to thats what scares me. I just remember waking up with an enlarge head and him making volger statments like me sleeping with other people. I just want justice if what I thought really happend. It just sickens me. Thanks though
Teacher's Pet Posted August 12, 2006 Posted August 12, 2006 It sounds like this guy is serious deranged..... Guys like that make me sick. Keep your chin up. Don't let this bring you down at work. Remember....guys like him feed on other's pain. Don't give the prick the satisfaction. If you need to talk, PM me. I went through this with an ex of mine several years ago, and helping her through her past issues was a challenge, but I learned much from it........ Smile. I said so. -tp
Author Brittjean06 Posted August 12, 2006 Author Posted August 12, 2006 Thanks man thats so nice of you yeah he was a true sociopath I will smile, I honestly just want to block it out of my mind too bad I had this dream I haven't talked to him in a year and I'm glad I haven't I just wish I had gotten him in jail! thanks teachers pet
Ariadne Posted August 12, 2006 Posted August 12, 2006 Hi, You never had sex with him before? That was it? Ariadne
Diver012 Posted August 12, 2006 Posted August 12, 2006 Guys like that really piss me off. He will get whats coming to him, in this life or the next...
Author Brittjean06 Posted August 12, 2006 Author Posted August 12, 2006 I will try to tell the whole story and make it short so you guys have an understanding of what happend. He had kicked me down the stairs and I happen to tell his sister and friends, he didn't admit to me that he new I told them. I know I was stupid for staying with him I guess I was really naive ....REALLLy ( yes I have had sex with him) he woulden't be doing it to have sex. He was acting really strange and fake like trying to be all lovey dovey saying lets to E together...but I new something was up but I still took them. Instead of the effect of E I got sooo drousy and he was saying mean things to me like go hang my self and like telling me to go run around the room than I remember passing out. Before that he had told me I will get mine I just won't remember it.. Now Its just all coming to me now making me realise what he had done to me...But a week later it was like he did nothing wrong. I also remember him asking me " do you remember what happend last night " and I said no and he said he didn't either.. So I'm putting two and two together NOW and I just want revenge I just am having this sick feeling it all submerged from me having a dream last night. No there is nothing I can do its tooo tooo tooo late I just really hope that justice is done in some shape way or form if anything did happen. Its hard to get out of my head you know?
Ariadne Posted August 12, 2006 Posted August 12, 2006 Ah, Well, maybe he did, since you said he was kind of psycho... But if you had sex with him before I'd say is no big deal, the perv guy. Ariadne
AriaIncognito Posted August 12, 2006 Posted August 12, 2006 I tend to disagree with the "you had sex before so it's no big deal"... You can have sex with a man 300 times, but if you say no, and he forces you to do it anyway somehow, it's still rape. Plain and simple. What he did, is inexcusable. I dont care if they had sex for 20 hours before he tricked her into taking the drug. If he loved her, he wouldn't have taken advantage of her, intentionally, with drugs. As for you brit, be strong. These memories suck. Just come here and talk it out. Unfortunately, you have no recourse in a situation such as this, but you'll definitely need to come to terms with it yourself, in order to move forward. We're all here for you... Jennifer
Author Brittjean06 Posted August 12, 2006 Author Posted August 12, 2006 I really dont think he would have raped me...he would have gotten others to do it..Things just didn't make sense I'm really trying to block it out of my head I know he defiently gave me like 5 roofies...the things he was saying when I woke up just sounded like I had screwed different guys... I don't know sociopaths love to play head games he really did screw with my head I feel bad for the girl hes marrying if she only new. Thanks for all the support I really wish I wasn't so stupid back than I could have gotten him in big troubleee
richardcruz Posted August 13, 2006 Posted August 13, 2006 Britt, Dont know if you are religious at all but here is a bible verse for you: Dearly beloved, avenge not yourself but rather give place unto wrath for it is written, vengence is mine. I will repay, saith the Lord. Romans 12:19 KJV In short, was goes around comes around. This has helped me really move on just knowing that even though my ex really burned me hard, There is a greater power or regulator in life and I need not have to worry or burden myself or feel hurt. I can walk away with my head up knowing that I am not guilty of any wrong doing and I did everything I could to make things work even though she cheated on me and treated me like crap at the end. My ex on the other hand, as well as yours; well lets just say it a guarantee that there day will come
Author Brittjean06 Posted August 14, 2006 Author Posted August 14, 2006 Just the advice I needed to here, thanks richard! I've been thinking lately about karma and god so pretty ironic that you post this. I don't want to wish bad for them for what has happend in the past and in the past past when we were together, but I can't help it I am only human and for some odd reason I laugh because if they only new how fast life comes But if I think like that it will come back to me but whatever I have a right to feel revenge. Thanks for the advice Im surprised that was written in the bible, I really should give a good look at mine.
richardcruz Posted August 14, 2006 Posted August 14, 2006 Britt, I really hope that verse provided you some sort of relief or comfort as it did with me. And yes, you are just human so it is okay to feel the way that you are feeling. Just try not to dwell on it so much, as it is truly out of your hands. Easier said than done? Absolutely! I am in a phase right now from my breakup that I feel very angry at what my ex did to me and seem to have a growing resentment towards her. But I guess we all need to learn to let things go, as it serves to be quite useless worying or being upset at things that we have no control over. Im sorry about what happended and I truly hope you feel better. Move forward and don't look back. Let God (or what ever omnipotent being you chose to believe in) handle the rest.
Author Brittjean06 Posted August 14, 2006 Author Posted August 14, 2006 Thanks richard! It really is out of my hands and I will just have to go with the flow of life, I want the bad feelings to go away but they haven't. But I am lucky enough to say I have great days every day, just some pain still lingers a bit here and there. I know in my heart that it will just take new things, maybe a new relationship to swipe all the feelings . It has been a year in a cuple of days and if you think about it, its not too long its just long enough to subside the pain, I have my ego that has been bruised and the bad memories to remember. I do know I have my whole life ahead of me and that I will look back on this and realize how much it wasn't worth dwelling on. I am just in a really big transitioning phase in my life right now with friends and this but I know its all for the better, one day I will be very much thankful for this learning experience. I do believe in God it seems every time I ask for a sign I get one. Are you still dwelling on your ex? what bad things did she do to you if you don't mind me asking?
richardcruz Posted August 14, 2006 Posted August 14, 2006 Are you still dwelling on your ex? what bad things did she do to you if you don't mind me asking? Not at all Britt. First of all, here is my last thread http://www.loveshack.org/forums/t95918/ Anyways, I am still coping with getting over my ex. I have been NC for a month and some weeks. Basically, she had problems at home, so I bought a house so we could live happily together. We told each other that we were soulmates and that we l*ved each other. (hate that word!). Half a year passes and she decides she wants to go back home. She moves out. Never calls to see how I'm dealing with bills, payments, or feelings. Shortly after she starts partying with her freinds an starts excludes me from her plans. She starts ingnoring my calls and txts and tells me some really cruel stuff (read my thread). Basically she just started treating me like dirt. I (like an idiot) offer marriage like we had discussed. She says no. She says she just wants to forget about us. I find out that a week before she left, she was talking to someone else and started to visit him the day after she moved. All of it was really abrupt. I didn't understand how she could've done this to me. I cried to her (big mistake) which obviously didn't do any good. I realized she didn't care anymore about me and stopped calling her and haven't heard from her since. The only thing I catch myself dwelling on is how could she have been so cold-hearted to someone who l*ved her so much:( Thanks for listening Britt. Sorry about the ranting. I didn't mean to hijack your thread and make this about me. Like I said, most of us really just need to let go of certain things but its just so hard becuase they hurt us so bad.
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