How do I let go?

[gottaletgo]

I've been married to my highschool boyfriend for several years. We have kids. He cheated on me numerous times...with 5 different women... during the first 3 years of our marriage. I was completely shattered and broken. I hadn't finished college, I wasn't working and I had no family around to support me. I soon realized that I wasn't the person I wanted to be. My self esteem was shot and I began to drift through life. I decided to stay in the marriage. I eventually earned my degree, started a career and grew to have more confidence. Several years ago, I ran into a man that I had been friends with in highschool. He always had a crush on me...and apparently still did. We began talking on the phone and things quickly became sexual. He had a girlfrined at the time we reconnected and became engaged and got married to her during our "relationship". I continued things with him because it's not like I was available for something more...We have had a "secret" relationship for several years and recently told each other that we love one another. The problem is that I am more emotionally involved with him than he is with me and he has no plans to leave his wife. We speak on the phone regularly and he could talk about weekend plans with his wife and how sexy he thinks I am all in the same conversation. Basically, we talk to each other the way platonic friends would, but when we see each other the attraction is overwhelming. I know that there is no future with us and I know that I need to let go, but the problem is that I can't seem to. He makes me feel beautiful and special when we're together. My husband has hurt me so much over the years and it feels nice to spend time with someone who thinks that I'm special. The bottom line is that my "friend" says he loves me, but is happy with the way things are. I know that what we're doing is wrong and that I decerve more that someone who only bothers with me when it's convenient for him. I need to completely let go of this friendship, but I feel I need to have a conversation with him in order to have closure.

[Guest]

Damn, Honestly and as hard as it may sound if he wasnt treating you right then, for all of those years then most likely he will not change because of a talk. In fact he will most likely just show the same selfish behavior and make you feel even worst about yourself. I would STAY AWAY and if he really wants to change his ways and if he really loves you then he will call you and he will say the right things and you wont have to question him because you will know whether he's for real or not. Just dont give him the satisfaction of knowing that you need him so much, Then he will feel like he will always be able to treat you how he wants and never have to worry about you going anywhere...For Long.