silentcharon Posted August 12, 2006 Posted August 12, 2006 Hello everyone. A long, long time ago, I started a website, call it a blog if you will, way before the blogging trend started. I used to write a journal- save each letter and code it into html files (per letter) and upload them to my server, and be continously adding the links to the page where I had a list of all those letters in dated links. Yeah, that long ago, maybe around 9 years ago. Anyway, when I first met my ex, that was when I started the blog. I was 15. I decided to check the site to read some of my old entries. Keep in mind, I'm 22 now. I read some of the first entries, I was so in love with this guy that it was all I ever talked about. It makes me laugh now, thinking about how much in love I was with him when I first met him. It just truly amazes me. Later in the next couple of years, I wrote about our fights, our good memories of laughters and tears, EVERYTHING- well, maybe except for our sex life, ha ha. I ended up reading some of the entries later in the next few years leading up to now- It amazes me how much I have grown and changed over the years. Even 7 years later, after the break up, it amazes me- it's actually something I can smile about now. Six months ago, I probably wouldn't have smiled over that. It's been 7 months ago when we broke up. I took a moment to think about how much I have healed now. I don't think I'm fully healed yet, but I feel like I'm getting there. (smile) The point of this entry was to tell every one of you here at LS, however miserable you are now, you WILL heal. It may come sooner or later, but you will heal when you are ready to. Good night, every one!
Pink Amulet Posted August 12, 2006 Posted August 12, 2006 Hindsight is a remarkable thing. I am amazed at my resillience evident in my letters. NEVER AGAIN. I am a hard ass now
Author silentcharon Posted August 12, 2006 Author Posted August 12, 2006 Hindsight is a remarkable thing. I am amazed at my resillience evident in my letters. NEVER AGAIN. I am a hard ass now I know! I'm pretty sure I'll be like that even fifty years later, reading on my past, reading about my exes, job problems, just about life in general, and be like, holy *****, was I ever stupid. We are always evolving- moving on forward. I guess I'd probably become a hard ass eventually too, lol!
Great Gazoo Posted August 12, 2006 Posted August 12, 2006 I am glad your healing, like the old saying time will heal all wounds. I would like to think I am getting better, I know I have more faith in life now more than ever.
Author silentcharon Posted August 12, 2006 Author Posted August 12, 2006 I am glad your healing, like the old saying time will heal all wounds. I would like to think I am getting better, I know I have more faith in life now more than ever. That's true, time does indeed heal. It's great that you have more faith in love now, but you must remember that your faith will waver sometimes. You just have to remind yourself that it won't last forever, and that you will recover. That pretty much sums up my post, lol.
Great Gazoo Posted August 12, 2006 Posted August 12, 2006 I always try to keep my faith in love but just faith in life itself I had lost, basically I had lost hope. Yes you can recover from anything but love will last forever when you find the right person, I know.
Brittjean06 Posted August 12, 2006 Posted August 12, 2006 I can't wait to start changing. Im only 18 and still not over my sociopath " first love " ex boyfriend. But Im sure I will look back on this when I am 22 or maybe even next year when I find a new love. All people need is time to sort things out and to see how things really are/were. I hope I get taller too. I doubt though
Chinook Posted August 12, 2006 Posted August 12, 2006 Its interesting isn't it..? Because when you think about it, almost every situation we find ourselves in is temporary, transitory... leading us to some place else. I really think it's true that they say it's the journey which matters, the learning... not the destination. Roger Bannister (british athlete) once said "Life is for living forwards, even if it only makes sense looking back" (1954)
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