Author Ruff Ryder Posted August 15, 2006 Author Posted August 15, 2006 Where do I even start here? I still think this can work but then I think what am I doing. This girl maybe better off without me. Everything happens for a reason correct? Is the notion to fight for her not also a reason. What am I doing and how do i do it to win? I dont know AGGGGGGGGGG this is madness isnt it. But if I can pull it off it will be well worth it. Guys I need some idears here. Im trying hard she is talikng to me but Im not sure if she is willing to see me yet. What are my odds? I have to give this one final go and win.... I have to
Touche Posted August 15, 2006 Posted August 15, 2006 She's not even willing to SEE you and you're trying to get her back? Good luck with that!
Author Ruff Ryder Posted August 16, 2006 Author Posted August 16, 2006 She is a lying cheating cow.... For pissing in a bucket. She is willing to see me and all that willing to flirt over the phine. She is willing to do pretty much anything. Bit of backroud here we were over for a while then she came back into my life (we were sleeping with eachother till about 2,5 months ago. I stopped it NC big time cause it was hurting to much. But now I find out not but 20 mins ago that she is moving in with a guy that she has knowen and been dating for 3,5 montd now. So I do the math she was cheating on him with me for a month and now they moving in together. For fu#k sake what is it with these damn woman. I suppose she is not mine and therfore I shouldnt care but it hurts like hell to know that she is moving in with someone after 3 and a bit months. I just wanna screem shout curse and blow up her house... AGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG Im an idiot open up old wounds for no reason... Pain is love and Im feeling the pain. I think its more that my dreams were shattered I want to be a dad have a family and be the best person I could be but now I cant have that. We were planning our first child for this time this year. OUCH this is really hurting..... ENGLAND HERE I COME BETTER GET READY.
burning 4 revenge Posted August 16, 2006 Posted August 16, 2006 Fu*k England RR, Come to South Florida All you need here is money and then this place becomes a f*cking paradise
Author Ruff Ryder Posted August 16, 2006 Author Posted August 16, 2006 Your nick name is my state of mind. South florida hey. You get me the work ill be there in a flash. Fu#k this is so much harder than it should be.... WHY WHY WHY....
Touche Posted August 16, 2006 Posted August 16, 2006 No offense B4 but S. Fl. is a cesspool. You couldn't PAY me to live there again.
burning 4 revenge Posted August 16, 2006 Posted August 16, 2006 It's the most beautiful cesspool I've ever seen Touche. It costs $$$$ no doubt. I need to find a way to up the $$$$
Author Ruff Ryder Posted August 16, 2006 Author Posted August 16, 2006 I got a call from her ex step sister to be, long story the chick keeps phoning me up asking how I am and when she is going to see me. My ex mom lives in cape town and was engaged to this girls dad Noel. I just hope that they look after my 3 little puppies Mika steven and tyson. I feel very sorry for this new guy, firstly her cheating on him with me and who knows who else. Also they habent been together for to long and moving in with someone is hard work I know she lived with me for a while 2 years or so. I dont know I feel for him wierd hey she was always ill and all that. Poor dude. Well Im out. Have a good one all... Pray for him and me
Author Ruff Ryder Posted August 16, 2006 Author Posted August 16, 2006 WOW hold the phone here a second. " There is no other man so stop being silly" is the message I get. Madness, it was from an internet number. This is crazy there is no other man? Well what ever is going on Im not sure looking for clarity here.
Winfield Posted August 16, 2006 Posted August 16, 2006 She's playing with your thoughts and feelings - end of! By the sound of things, this should have ended after you'd written your first post on the thread. Why? Because she cheated on you! With her, it's going nowhere... Now, if ever there was a good reason for leaving someone (ie, her) and looking to pastures new (ie, moving for work), that would most definitely be the one.
Author Ruff Ryder Posted August 16, 2006 Author Posted August 16, 2006 Fu#k it man, that was it your are to right. I just want all my **** back and for her to stay the fu#k away from me. Im sick of all the bull **** and lie's and drama. Everone deserves someone but she sure as hell does not deserve me... Im out going to get my visias in the next few days and then Im out. She must live with her mistakes and I can live with mine.... Thanks all big up.
Lisa079 Posted August 16, 2006 Posted August 16, 2006 I am so sorry for you (and the new guy of your ex's as well though ). You now know your ex was deceitful, playing in order for herself to get what she wanted. Tell yourself 'The person you were in love with didn't really exist because she was hiding big parts of herself from you. You were in love with someone that was partly an idea of your own imagination.' However, the pain you are feeling is proof that you have a heart that can love sincerely. If you were shallow, like your ex, you would not suffer as much, but you would be less of a person.
Author Ruff Ryder Posted August 17, 2006 Author Posted August 17, 2006 Hey you..... I just wanted to let you know that I accept your silent decision to not respond to my mails or even my smses. Thats ok I suppose it your decision at the end of the day to whom you talk to and who you dont..... But I just want to part with leaving you with a few words. I think now is a good as time as ever to say that at this point in time I am looking at leaving the country and I didnt want to go without making right with you. I have been offered a job in England and Scotland that I think I may take. I know the last one was a disaster but that was because I had more in S.A than England... I dont want to bounce back into your life, oh no made that mistake once and will not make it again. We were good for each other but no more than stepping stones I was good for your support system for your depression and you helped me kick my Carree into huge action... Thinking about it now we had nothing in common and there was minimal attraction. Sorry just wanted to clear that up. (this does not mean that we cant be friends) but that to is a two way street and I know I'll be walking it alone at this rate..... However all that said please take this to heart... Since our stop in communication and seeing each other I have done some serious thinking and some reflecting and I know that I was not the person you fell for. I became a co-dependant prick I was no longer a man I was a child seeking approval from you. I pushed you away alot by doing this and tried to con troll you. I just wanted to be there for you no matter what, I wanted help you no matter what and I know now I should have left you to fight your own battles. This is the only way you would have learnt... I have searched and re-found myself Im back to just having fun and being the person I want to be doing what I want and I hope your doing the same..... Tanya you will always be my babygirl and this is what I want you to take with you till the day you die " Every word I said I meant it you are fantastic and loving kind sexy fun your the ideal woman for any man... You may be 25 and all that but remember that you need to be a child at heart and just have fun doing everything your job and everything else. Sure you hurt me badly but the more I think about it the more I know its only because I let you its only because I lost control over my thoughts and emotions and that was a bad thing. I have found that control again and its working for me. With all that said I want to leave the past we had with dignity. I want to say sorry I want to say goodbye propel I want to say I dont have a negative felling against you I want to tell you that I do still think about you sometimes I do still reminisce about somethings like the day stevi was born and we slept on the floor for a while in the new big house. lol I still miss the little things your loud chewing or moving your feet in the bed the routine wake ups and the 3hr getting ready to go out. I miss the madness and the love. The touch of love and the thought of leaving work to come home to you. I miss the dvd nights and the watering the garden sitting on a deck chair. I really miss chasing the puppies around the room and house tyson with his rope. I miss your family your sister mom and dad. I miss the rugby and cricket. How excited you got over Navy NCIS and law and order. I miss isindigo but not the program I dont even watch it but I miss watching it with you. I miss how hard you used to try to do things right. I miss the good time we had together. What Im trying to say is that I will never forget the times we spent together and everything we did good and bad. It may have hurt but we survived and we alive. We lived and learnt at the same time. I have learnt the most valuable lesson from you and that is never look to be happy in a person rather be happy just by yourself. I would far rather be alone and happy than be with someone and not happy. I know your involved with someone at the moment and that that may be part of the reason that your not talking to me and I know that you are happy with him and I do hope you guys have a great fulfilling life/relationship and that you stay happy. Just remember that you are a wonderful amazing talented young lady and never ever let anyone tell you otherwise. Be strong and stay strong never ever compromise your goals and dreams for some one else and never ever do anything that you dont want to. Tell the new man if he hurts you in any way I will come for him lol I know that we went through alot and some was good and others were terrible but i would never trade it in for anything. I would never even think about trying to forget you and never stop having a place for you in my hear. I do wish you all the love that you deserve and that I couldn't give at the time. All the support that you need and all the good health that one could ask for. Please remember that I never wanted to hurt you and I did stupid stupid things to try and "win you back" but your not a prize your the journey and the destination. Be happy and have a great day week month and life. With much respect and love. "Ryde to die" Bye bye
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