I'm in love with him and I have to watch him marry

[RandomGurl]

Hello guys,

 

I imagine this post is in the correct forum, I do need to cope actually with what I have to accept.

 

You see, I'm 17 .. 18 in just a few months. Basically I was friends with this guy who is 12 years older than me and we spoke every single night. It's shocked me that we had a lot in common. I mean we shared the same views on different things, we had the exact same taste in things and we both wanted the same things in life. He quite often reminded me that we're very much a like.

 

Now to be honest I don't have a problem with age gaps. I'm guessing a lot of you find it disturbing about the 12 years but I'm perfectly happy with it. I trusted him after about a year of deep meaningful chats that I decided to meet him.

 

We met up and went to a bowling alley and immediately fell for each other. It was an amazing connection that I'm lost for words to describe it. He was wonderful and we flirted too. I couldn't keep my eyes off him. The thing is, he has a girlfriend and a one year old son. His girlfriend knew we met up and was fine with it seeing as I was just a teenager, but we have fallen for each other.

 

I don't know what to do because I have kissed him (I'm not proud of it) and cuddled with him and I just want him. When I'm with him nothing else matters. It's just so unreal when we're together.

 

He's moving in to a bigger house next month and is getting married next year. It's breaking my heart. How do I watch someone I'm in love with marry someone else? The pain is awful and it keeps me awake at night crying. I can't do this, I can't watch him marry her. He loves me and has even admitted I turn him on more than she does. (I can't deny the fact I was flattered).

 

I can't help who I fall for. We fell for each other just like that. I want to be with him but how can I? I don't think I can bare the thought of losing him.

 

Your quite welcome to judge seeing as I have made mistakes. I'm sorry.

 

Please help,

 

Laura

[norajane]

If you start staying away from him now, you won't have to 'watch' him get married next year. Odds are, you won't be invited to the wedding. You may think you are in love with him, but he just thinks you're a hot young girl.

 

Not being harsh, just realistic, sweets. At your age, you've got a lot of falling in love ahead of you. In a few years, you'll look back on this (if you even remember it) and will wonder what you ever saw in this guy...people change so much from 17 to 20 and even more beyond. What you want now will in no way resemble what you want several years from now.