Author fireflywy Posted August 12, 2006 Author Posted August 12, 2006 Ahh.. I did that because I was always commenting on your photos. So I thought I'd put my myspace up and hopefully give people some good laughs as well.
AriaIncognito Posted August 12, 2006 Posted August 12, 2006 Can you guys request that again? LOL. I didn't realize it was you guys. I didn't check the thread first. :eek: Pink, the myspace things is just a fun little site to keep in touch with people. You can customize it how you like, write your thoughts down, communicate, meet new people, etc. It's free. I tried to request again but it's asking me for your name or email LOL. I'm ariawoman on there as well, so maybe add me ;-) Jennifer
Teacher's Pet Posted August 12, 2006 Posted August 12, 2006 Oh hell.. Since we're all sharing our myspace accounts.... www.myspace.com/dirtyjerseyboy All are welcome, of course. -tp
Author fireflywy Posted August 15, 2006 Author Posted August 15, 2006 Okay... today I saw her pass by me TWICE when I was on my break. I've been eating there at the same time for MONTHS and I haven't seen her. Since I wrote that letter, I see her all the time now. (she never responded). I keep seeing her now.. is this just coincidence or something else? EVERYTIME I see her, it happens in a quick five second burst. Should I wave next time? Should I shout out, "Hi" or what? We never make eye contact so I was just curious.
Mollyanna Posted August 15, 2006 Posted August 15, 2006 Make curious eye contact like you are wondering why she is there. (practice that look in the mirror, hehe) See how she acts. I am kind of curious myself. Let me know what she does.
Author fireflywy Posted August 15, 2006 Author Posted August 15, 2006 She doesn't make eye contact with me. lol There used to be this noise that she would make that we would joke about... maybe when she passes by I should make that instead. Of course, I don't want to get accused of harrasing her. Like I said, she has never made an attempt to let me know that it was okay to talk. I'll try the curious eye contact thing though and see what happens.
Author fireflywy Posted August 15, 2006 Author Posted August 15, 2006 Pretty weird. But we always got a kick out of it. lol.
Mollyanna Posted August 15, 2006 Posted August 15, 2006 if she doesn't respond to it, are you going to look like an *ss?
Author fireflywy Posted August 15, 2006 Author Posted August 15, 2006 lol. Probably. I think i'll pass on that. However, if she ever does approach me I'm going to say..."Stop.. Before you say anything.. I've got three questions..." 1. How is your daughter? 2. How are you? And then, in a serious tone I'll say, "The last question is a really serious question, and one I've been waiting to ask..." then I'll smile and say "Make that that funny noise for old times sake." Maybe that would break the ice a bit.
Mollyanna Posted August 15, 2006 Posted August 15, 2006 awww that would be nice. but I really think you should stop torturing yourself by eating there and wondering about her? How can you enjoy your lunch when you are watching for her at the corner of your eye the whole time?
Author fireflywy Posted August 23, 2006 Author Posted August 23, 2006 Well... I guess all that stuff about seeing her was pretty coincidental. She has a new guy now and there isn't any chance that she'll speak to me now. (other than that letter I wrote, I haven't tried) All I can say is, all of her stuff about how she couldn't afford to be "vulnerable" at the beginning of our relationship and all the problems she caused by it, were pretty much junk. She moved on pretty fast and I guess dear old mom was right when she said that the vulnerable stuff was because she wanted attention. (when will I learn to listen?) lol. So anyway... she has a new man... I know there will be a day when they're sitting there at some table or at her home where she'll speak of me and say "Firefly was a jerk and dirty fighter," and he'll nod and go "um hmm..." and so on and so forth. And they will be happy for a while. They mabye even happier then we were together because maybe she acts differently to him then she did to me. But it won't last.... Because there will be a day when all that will come tumbling down. When the guy she's with (and I know this for certain) won't care the way I did and she'll truly have a horrible ending with words far worse than what passed between us. On that day.. she'll shed her tears, vent her anger, and think about her past. On that day she'll look back and think about the people she's lost. And then she'll think of me with regret.... and I will have moved on.
Author fireflywy Posted August 23, 2006 Author Posted August 23, 2006 Now that I think about it... lol. She probably won't think about me. I had some pretty big things thrown at me that came from her perceptions of me and as she always said "Her perception is her reality" (even if they were misperceptions). After reading Padameckla's last post, some of her feelings about her ex where some of the things that were levelled at me. That's not to say that I wasn't perfect at all times but I have grown from my past. I know deep down in my heart that I truly wasn't the things she credited me with, but at the time, that's how she saw me, so that's how she reacts. In the end, it's her perceptions of me which will make it impossible for her to look back on me with any longing or regret. I can't fault her for that because that's something she either can't or won't change. Obviously, a lot of my friends say "That if she's as beautiful and as desireable as you describe her, then she would be taken right now by some doctor where she works. Obviously, she isn't and there is a reason why." (sounds bad I know.. but you guys on here have read my story, and seen how I tried. Before people get critical, allow me that much please) That's who she is. My last post was just wishful thinking I suppose. But I'm still moving on...
Mollyanna Posted August 25, 2006 Posted August 25, 2006 Awwww, you are going through the stages, I see it! I go back and forth between "he will never find anyone better" and "why would he want to be with me, there was too much drama", but in the end, it doesn't really matter what the X thinks. We need to move on. Their "perceptions" shouldn't even enter our mind. They are not our concern. They did not care about our feelings - they discarded us. I certainly do not spend a whole lot of time thinking about the people that I dumped. And anymore I only think about the last 2 boyfriends who dumped me. The others are a distant memory. I prefer that to the pain. The longer you think about her and what she is doing and what she is feeling, the longer you keep that pain alive.
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