NightsInWhiteSatin Posted August 9, 2006 Posted August 9, 2006 The inevitable has happen, my ex being a 'musician' has written and recorded a hurtful song about the breakup getting at me.....even though he was the one who dumped me and broke my heart lol. Just an example of one of the lines in it - 'if i held you now would you tell me why you fell and dragged me down?' The song is called 'Emotional Sickness' and basically it paints me the bad guy...and says that i dragged him down with me and i've put him through pain and now he's got to get rid of me from his life because i drag him down... I used to suffer from depression which i was just coming out of while i was with him, he never gave me his time or attention but could make time for footy and lads nights out but still insisted he loved me...this hurt me deeply and i couldnt understand him and it saddened me. Basically i came to the conclusion he didnt love me. Then a few weeks later he dumped me because 'it wasnt working out because he didnt have time'...... Now he's writing songs blaming my illness... I was so shocked at first when i heard it... i felt all shaky and weak and just drained and numbed up...how could he? I feel so alone in all this...my friends are working abroad till november...i cant go to mutual friends between me and the ex because that'll just cause ruptions...how could he do that how could he sink that low after everything hes done to me he just has to keep hurting and hurting me it's like he's got nothing better to do and takes pleasure in his dramas that involve hurting me i feel like i cant get away from him.
KittenMoon Posted August 9, 2006 Posted August 9, 2006 Those who have never experienced depression will never understand those who have. Stop seeking this stuff out, Nights.
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