jimmy20013 Posted August 5, 2006 Posted August 5, 2006 Thank You for the break-up. You did me a favour by breaking-up with me because you didn't deserve me. I know it sounds conceited but you didn't. You never gave the love,repsect and attention I deserve. You looked for a approval for our relationship from everyone and when you didnt get that, you took it out on me. I stood through your hard times but you deserted me in mine. You treated me like trash after the break-up and said things that literally killed me. God is very just and you will reap what you sowed. One day you will be where I am and I hope I am around to see that. What hurts me the most is that even after all this, I still love you !!! You said you hate me and that I was an awful person. To that I say, screw you. I hope you end up with some trail trash who will make your life hell and make all your insecurities come true. "God please forgive me for my attitude. Give me the strength to forgive her and to move on. I know you have better things planned for me. Help me not to seek revenge. You are a just God and you will give her what she deserves." That felt a little better.
waitingforlove Posted August 5, 2006 Posted August 5, 2006 Sounds like you're very angry with her? I understand, though. But you know, ultimately you have to forgive her in order to truly move on. Good luck with that!! We all understand how hard it is, especially since it sounds to me like she was "emotionally blackmailing" you by making you feel bad about yourself, which you really didn't deserve. But since she doesn't deserve you, why even get upset with her? You getting upset with her would show that she's still too important to you. Remember, someone said, the opposite of love isn't hate -- it's apathy. Just don't even care to be mad at her anymore, okay? Good luck!!
Author jimmy20013 Posted August 6, 2006 Author Posted August 6, 2006 Thanks for the encouragement. She was the travel agent for guilt trips. She was going to school to study psycology and all she did was analysed me. All my flaws , actions and words were put under the microscope. I admit I said somethings that I shouldn't have but I never claimed to be perfect. What a waste of 18 months!!!!
Brittjean06 Posted August 6, 2006 Posted August 6, 2006 Yeah but the last step in the healing process is forgiveness and not to bust your chops, but Im sure your no where near that are you? I'm sorry you got dumped:(
Chinook Posted August 6, 2006 Posted August 6, 2006 Yeah but the last step in the healing process is forgiveness and not to bust your chops, but Im sure your no where near that are you? Um, I think I'd agree with this. Anger is pretty normal. I think when it doesn't matter anymore is when we're over it. From the initial breakup to the moment of acceptance (which we may never actually see) and all the gamut of emotions in between, there is no right or wrong way to get over things. Maybe recognising where you are and how you feel is an important part of healing though..? I'm not sure. It sometimes helps me that I can analyse how I feel and work out why I feel like that... but then other times I'm completely at a loss as to why I feel like I do... STILL! and I feel stuck. It is what it is. Some people take 5 minutes to recover from a breakup and others can take years.
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