Brittjean06 Posted August 3, 2006 Posted August 3, 2006 Yeah It's been a year. I have been posting alot lately but this one should be of importance. I think since I am still hurt that I am exagerating the pain thinking that oh since I feel some pain everynow and than I am not getting over it. But I am. My feelings for him are slowly progressing in to disgust of the things he did to me. Its 7 in the morning right now and I can't sleep. Not because I miss him or had one of those dreams where " I need him " But I just had a horrible dream about him and all I felt in that dream was disgust. I woke up and just coulden't go back to sleep. I'm not upset at all but lately I can see when I am over this what it will feel liek to see pictures of him or dream about him. Disgust. This wasn't just some jerky guy but someone who was purely evil. I believe dreams are where you try to sort things out your own and this dream just didn't leave me feeling horrible at all but disgust. Im not having pity on my self and it feels really good not to. I guess it took alot for me to get to this phase and yeah sometimes it hurts to think I only loved his potential. But I will never go to her myspace again to see what else she has to say I blocked her from messaging me. I really don't care if they think I haven't moved on, its not what they think. And plus years from now they won't even matter to me. It's hard not to wish bad for them when you do feel pain. But I know that life has a little bit in stores for them, that they haven't seen yet. So all these feelings are normal. Glad I came to agknowledge them now. :-)
a4a Posted August 3, 2006 Posted August 3, 2006 Hey BJ you know that if you can stop posting about him, erase that blog from your myspace and remove the other things in your life that keep bringing you hurt you will move on much faster. You are your own worst monster in this whole thing. Do yourself a huge favor..... get rid of the reminders (public blogs too) and stop dwelling on this... or at least ask yourself why you don't want to let go. You are making this continue... if you want it to stop.......ignore them, remove them, and move on.
KittenMoon Posted August 3, 2006 Posted August 3, 2006 Hey BJ you know that if you can stop posting about him, erase that blog from your myspace and remove the other things in your life that keep bringing you hurt you will move on much faster. You are your own worst monster in this whole thing. Do yourself a huge favor..... get rid of the reminders (public blogs too) and stop dwelling on this... or at least ask yourself why you don't want to let go. You are making this continue... if you want it to stop.......ignore them, remove them, and move on. Agreed! Like I keep saying, you're over this guy Brit. But you continue to talk about it... and that's preventing the final sense of healing. How about this- no more posts about this guy. None. Stop talking about him AT ALL for say... 2 weeks at least... and see how you feel then. Still no new beau?
superconductor Posted August 3, 2006 Posted August 3, 2006 Oh, fercryinoutloud BJ, just get a grip and get over this guy already. The time for feeling bad has come and gone. Now it's time to move forward. Dreams, by the way, don't mean anything. They're just random firings of electrical and chemical impulses in the brain. You can create as many meanings as you want, but that has nothing to do with reality.
sickkitty Posted August 3, 2006 Posted August 3, 2006 dreams are part of ur sub - consious apparantly thats how hypnosis works every thing u dream has a meaning to ur life at this present stage of time u should keep a dream diary and go online to c what they mean can be quite interesting dont u think?
a4a Posted August 3, 2006 Posted August 3, 2006 Oh, fercryinoutloud BJ, just get a grip and get over this guy already. The time for feeling bad has come and gone. Now it's time to move forward. Dreams, by the way, don't mean anything. They're just random firings of electrical and chemical impulses in the brain. You can create as many meanings as you want, but that has nothing to do with reality. I don't know SC I had a dream that I had to pee really bad last night.... I even was dreaming that I had to pee so bad I had to find a place to do so.........when I woke up to the alarm I really had to pee bad!!!
KittenMoon Posted August 3, 2006 Posted August 3, 2006 I don't know SC I had a dream that I had to pee really bad last night.... I even was dreaming that I had to pee so bad I had to find a place to do so.........when I woke up to the alarm I really had to pee bad!!! Omg, I have those dreams all the time! Haha. I'll be rushing around in my dream trying to find a bathroom. I'll find one and I'll either not be able to go or the bathroom will be filthy. Then I wake up and I really have to go.
sickkitty Posted August 3, 2006 Posted August 3, 2006 Ever had a feeling in ur dream that ur falling the u suddenly wake up? apparantly that is ur soul trying to re-entre ur body and if u dont wake up b4 u hit the bottom, u dont wake up at all :o/ thats kinda scary lol
superconductor Posted August 3, 2006 Posted August 3, 2006 Ever had a feeling in ur dream that ur falling the u suddenly wake up? apparantly that is ur soul trying to re-entre ur body and if u dont wake up b4 u hit the bottom, u dont wake up at all :o/ thats kinda scary lol Where do you find this stuff?? In the asstrology section of the newspaper??
a4a Posted August 3, 2006 Posted August 3, 2006 Where do you find this stuff?? In the asstrology section of the newspaper?? National Inquirer probably Boy dies from dream is revived by magical toad and tells story!
sickkitty Posted August 3, 2006 Posted August 3, 2006 lol hay im a following pagan, i have to believe in something Ne way dreaming is what keeps u from going crazy
superconductor Posted August 3, 2006 Posted August 3, 2006 Is that the boy who's a genetically-manipulated bigfoot/alien hybrid?
a4a Posted August 3, 2006 Posted August 3, 2006 lol hay im a following pagan, i have to believe in something Ne way dreaming is what keeps u from going crazy My H rarely rarely remembers his dreams...... is he crazy then?
a4a Posted August 3, 2006 Posted August 3, 2006 Is that the boy who's a genetically-manipulated bigfoot/alien hybrid? Yes that is the one! Also "Big Foot abducted by Aliens and given Anal Probe" exclusive photos inside!
sickkitty Posted August 3, 2006 Posted August 3, 2006 my ex didnt remember his dreams and id say he was pretty damn crazy Every dreams even if they dont remember them, its like if u dont get enough sleep u go crazy Oh and another useless info white makes go insain aswell lol
Author Brittjean06 Posted August 3, 2006 Author Posted August 3, 2006 I am making it more alive for myself I know! I thougth this post was going to have responses like YAY Finally britt is entering a different stage of moving on. Because I am Your right I really should deleete everything. I am about to thank you!
Author Brittjean06 Posted August 3, 2006 Author Posted August 3, 2006 And nope no new boy yet but that is fine with me. I will be truely over all this when a new one appears. But I can tell I'm that type of person who takes big breaks in relationships for reasons to. You never know though, you never know which day your going to wake up and have all these feelings gone, and I am trying believe me:)
Guest Posted August 5, 2006 Posted August 5, 2006 when are you ever gonna learn? one year? still not over? do you have some sort of mental problem? go to a doctor then. If not, get over him, and instead of whining to your great friends on the net, go out, f.ck a couple of guys, go out with some older guy who will make you feel like a million bucks and you will get over him. You're barely legal, by looking at your myspace, you look like a decent looking(even though in LA standards youre barely a 5, loose some weight for sure) chick that puts out, so go out and do it already. AND FOR CHRIST SAKE, to "mean" is spelled like this, not meen.
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