Guest Posted August 2, 2006 Posted August 2, 2006 Hey all- My bf has a past history of abuse with pornography. (It's not just me shouting and saying it was an addiction--he even admits it was really unhealthy). During that time, he told me that he used to view me like his "own little porn star" and how he is so ashamed of that. He vowed to himself to stop abusing that crap and our relationship has really improved a lot (especially sexually). When I knew it was going on I never felt "hot" and "sexy" bc I knew he was always jerkin off to someone hotter and raunchier. Anyways- the other day I told him about something kind of "slutty" that I did a while ago and he admitted that he didnt think it was slutty of me but that it was disrepectful to myself. He also said he wasnt really that he just wanted to cuddle that night and not do anything physical bc he couldnt get that story out of his head. Things lead on and we ended up having sex. The weird thing is that I kinda felt how I did when he was watching porn. He seemed to be raunchier and saying things like "dont u like that" I think three things(or a combo of all): -He thinks I am slutty now and is disrepsecting me like a porn star -He is jealous and wants to show me good sex so I won't ever need to do something like that and get it elsewhere -I am insecure bc I feel slutty What do you think?!?!
kbah Posted August 3, 2006 Posted August 3, 2006 I think it could very well be a combination of all three...or maybe he is just trying to "one up" the other guy. Either way, if you feel disrepected you should tell him!!!
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