ALLALONEAT35 Posted August 1, 2006 Posted August 1, 2006 I cant believe its been a month since he moved out. Today I received a change of address for him, I was shocked, I guess you can say its just another sign that it is over. This weekend I was able to spend some time with him, and he never even said anything. Alot of people have given me some good advise on this web site. However, I have this problem, I am hard headed and didnt listen well. I think I did everything I was told not to do. This Sunday, I could not hold it in anymore. I told him how I felt, what I thought, what I wished, even helped him out with his laundry and dont forget about those three letter words "I love you". I told him that I was doing every thing wrong. He should be the one calling me, coming to see me, wanting to be with me. Then I said if I didnt give it all I had, then I had falled myself, and always would wonder if I even tried hard enough to save this marriage. All I can say is he listen, but really didnt have a response. Now I know its over, there is no reason to try anymore. I told myself that I would not file for a divorce, not yet anyways. I want to wait to its officially 10 years and that is this November. Dont ask me why. I wished it didnt hurt so much. He will never know how good he had it, but one day he will meet someone else who will love him and take care of him just like I did. And hopifully I can move forward and be happy. But for some reason I dont see it coming my way, at least not any time soon. I am hopeing I can find myself now and not focus so much on him. Life has to go on. Thanks for being out there. I know I am not alone with these empty feelings. But one day we all well find the right soul mate that will love us for the rest of lives. Take care....
dgiirl Posted August 1, 2006 Posted August 1, 2006 There's not much I can say except with time and effort things will get better. Try to refocus as much as possible. Be present in the present moment. Dont worry about what tomorrow will bring because no mater how hard you try, you never really know what will happen tomorrow. Try to find that inner peace in the present moment. I was in your exact shoes 1.5 years ago. I'm still working through my issues, but the pain is no where close to the intensity it was in the early days. Stay strong and keep faith that no matter what happens, it will be ok.
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