selenakitten Posted July 31, 2006 Posted July 31, 2006 Okay, don't get me wrong, I love my husband. But not all the way happy. He's good to me, but boring. I have a history of this same problem. When I was married to my ex-husband, he was abusive. I fell in love with many men (not at one time ok!) and my husband now was one of them. We have an age differance between us. He is older. The man I fell in love with is also older, but not quite that much, probably about 10 years older than me. He is a musician at a club. Now, mind you, he is not a typical stereotype musician. He doesn't "sleep" with the groupies, etc. I've known this man for years at another club and then ran into him last year at another club. I started falling for him and for awhile it was mutual. He would tell me that I was a married woman, and that I needed to behave. But when the club would close, and I'd hug him goodbye, we'd talk, and our eyes would linger at one another and soon our hugs got a little longer-more tighter. One night I whispered to him I wish we could kiss, and suddenly he did but a quick one, and he ran out of there like a shy boy! We held hands secretly and our eyes would lock when I would watch him play. When I danced, he's watch me. I have heard from others that he was intrested but because I was married, he couldn't step the line. I was ready to leave my husband for him, but was scared to be on my own if rejected. I am so secure at home and insecure about being by myself. He has since gotten with an old flame, and moved her in his home. He would still lock eyes with me when his girl wasn't there. I tried to ignore him but I would go mad if I didn't talk to him. My husband found out about this and was furious. I still go there. I was told by hubby to confess that it was found out and he told me to leave him alone. Girlfriend looks at me like she knows. But on one night when she wasn't there, and after I was told by him to leave him alone, I was dancing to DJ music (the band was on break) and I turned around to see him watching me from the back door. I am going crazy. I am so much in love with this man, my heart bursts! I play music that they play, go crazy! The insturment (bass guitar) he plays has always been a turn on for me, and I can't get away from it, b/c when I hear the instrument, I go nuts!!! I wear charm of that instument and a guitar pick with a picture of a broken heart around my neck symbolizing my broken heart from him! I love my husband but can't get my mind off of this man! HELP!!!!
abitconfused Posted August 1, 2006 Posted August 1, 2006 Kitten, what are you doing? When will you meet the one guy that actually is good enough for you. Are you infactuated with who he was at the moment or the person he is? This is a tough subject and no one has posted a replyed. I just know it is not right to move fomr one to another when you get tired of one. OK your ex was abusive and I see your welfare was an issue. You need to make your relationship more exciting with your husband. Fantasies filled maybe? I just don't get how you love this guy. You don't really even know him.
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