LikkleMissConfused Posted July 31, 2006 Posted July 31, 2006 Hello, I will try to keep thid short. I'm indian and have met a bloke form Wlaes through the internet. Suprisingly I know his whole family and his mum knows my mum. We get on so well over email and phone and I haven't felt this comfortable fo ra long while. Well yesterday, he had a few to drink. He called me all emotional and nothing he said upset me. It just got me thinking afterwards. Today I'm having an emotional panic attack. I can't understand why? Maybe because I feel scared I even had a bit of a cry last night. The worst thing about it is I don't know why. Am I scared of feeling strong feelings for someone? Is that why I always go for idiots who don't deserve my love and don't give it back so I don't feel as scared? This chap Mr Wales gives me so much, is that why I feel like this? I'm just ranting and trying to get the stuff out of my heart and post it on here. Best way I guess. Anyway, any thoughts woul dbe great! But not sure what responses I'll get because even I can't figure out what I'm feeling.
magichands Posted July 31, 2006 Posted July 31, 2006 This chap Mr Wales gives me so much, is that why I feel like this? He sounds a bit like an entrant in Mr Universe. Except they would probably be competing for the most impressive potbelly. What is it that Mr Wales gives you? Emotional support? I guess you now have drunken confirmation that he thinks a lot of you. And do you find it easy to express how you are feeling?
Author LikkleMissConfused Posted July 31, 2006 Author Posted July 31, 2006 Yes, I have told him how I felt except I do hold a little bit back. But thats not a bad thing! He knows that also that I keep my cards close to my chest. He makes me feel wanted, we understand eachother and have a lot in common. I mean we think the same and share the same view of the world. I'm not sure about emotional support thats just too early to say. But I feel so strange today and he had asked me why I'm feeling emotional and if he scared me yesterday. But he hasn't enaged too much in conversation and thats good coz I'm a bit all over the place. But then again i'm being unreasonable because I'm thinking well he isn't making a fuss of me. But he doesn't wnat to scar eme any more. Arggggghhhh! I feel like I hav emet my Mr.Right but I'm so f*** scared......
magichands Posted July 31, 2006 Posted July 31, 2006 Arggggghhhh! I feel like I hav emet my Mr.Right but I'm so f*** scared...... Calm down. Everything seems to be going well. Have you met, yet? Do you have plans?
Author LikkleMissConfused Posted July 31, 2006 Author Posted July 31, 2006 We are meeting 19th August. WHich I have been fine about. But now I am getting impatient and want to see him sooner. He has already said he doesn't know how long he can hold out for. He has just a moment ago said "it feels right doesn't it" and for the first time it does.
magichands Posted July 31, 2006 Posted July 31, 2006 He has already said he doesn't know how long he can hold out for. Sorry - hold out for... ?
Author LikkleMissConfused Posted July 31, 2006 Author Posted July 31, 2006 meeting me for the first time?
magichands Posted July 31, 2006 Posted July 31, 2006 meeting me for the first time? And the answer is... 19 days. So - can he get there, like, today?
Author LikkleMissConfused Posted August 1, 2006 Author Posted August 1, 2006 We agreed to meet in a couple of days. He lives in Wales which is approx 150 miles away from me! So a good 3 hours drive. I feel bad him coming all that way for a couple of hours but we are going to do it. I think it will be good, to break the ice. Also, since his emotional outburst on Sunday I feel he has started to hold back. And I hate it! I'm feeling all scared and emotional and strange.....I don't know what to do? I'm going to see him in a couple of days but I don't want to change and become more serious which is what I am doing already. Its freaking me out. Ahhhhh! HELP ME!
d1rtysecret Posted August 2, 2006 Posted August 2, 2006 I know how you feel, get on extremely well with this girl ive been chatting with for 7 months now and im due to fly out to meet her for the first time this friday, we have already expressed our feelings, but i have to admit i am s***ing myself, i dont think i have ever been this nervous about anything.
Author LikkleMissConfused Posted August 7, 2006 Author Posted August 7, 2006 Don't be scared. Just enjoy the feeling as you may realise the older you get the fewer and far betwwen you have these moments of feelings. I actually met him last Thursday and it was totally amazing. I was nervous and a bit shy but it was cool. The way we met was by playing hide and seek in a local supermarket. It was just so so funny. When we got to the restaurant he visited the boys room and another chap started to chat me up at the bar. Which, I think is always a godo situation to be in. Not the fact that I want to make him jealous but to see how he handles it. And he acted like a proper gent and didn't let it effect him. But i know he noticed. It was fab. We were talking all the way through chatting away and then he put his arm round me. So I cuddled him with both of my arms and you know the feeling was just so special! Thats tingly feeling you get inside. So just enjoy every moment.
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