P1xie Posted July 30, 2006 Posted July 30, 2006 I can hardly look at him right now. If you any of you read my other posts we have been having issues over him not spending time with me. Just a update his kid (10 yrs) that he has to have every weekend is now deemed old enough to stay home alone. Same kid that just last year was starting fires in his room and kitchen sink. Oh well not my kid, not my say. But it's funny how he just has to have him and leaves him home until 11:30 pm while he's out with his friends! BTW he wasn't home completely alone I came home about 9ish. My b-f didn't know that though. He thought it was perfectly fine for him to leave him home alone until 11:30 pm. He has to have him but, now wants to leave him alone or use me as his built in babysitter. He tends to sneak off and leaves the kid without asking me. I don't feel right leaving him alone. He's not mature enough and if something happened I would feel so guilty. I did tell him that he was not allowed to be here alone if my do was her because he was not responsible enough to watch her. Last year he left the door open and she got out and stolen. Well now he had to quit his good job because he feels the need to smoke pot. I am not anti pot. I don't personally use it but I don't think it's a big deal if it does not effect your life. He use to be responsible and quit before he had to start work, and not smoke while he was at work. He works at a job where he can get voluntarily lay offs which he takes because basically he don't want to work. One time he quit smoking for over a month and still came back positive .05. Well I didn't want to see him lose his job when I knew he wasn't smoking so I let him use my pee. I don't know if that was the right decisions or not. He wanted to use my pee this time but couldn't because I was on my period and traces of blood would show up. So he figures the best thing to do is quit! He doesn't help me financially but I just tend to lose respect for people who purposely don't work. In fact I pay for some of his bills and he pays of none of mine. I don't know the purpose of this post except to vent. I can honestly say right now with everything going on I JUST DON'T LIKE HIM!!! While I'm on my rage. I hate that he's so prejudice. He has something against Mexicans. Which he teaches his child. His kid use to have a crush on Jessica Alba until he heard my family talking about her nationality. I mean damn she's hot what difference does it make if she's part Hispanic. Oh daddy wouldn't approve. It's so sad. I thank god he is fixed and that we will never have children. When his kid found out she was Hispanic his face dropped. It was so sad. I told him that there was nothing wrong with her and yes Hispanics are beautiful too. There is no convincing him of that though. His father who he looks up to is all that matters in his life right now.
amaysngrace Posted July 30, 2006 Posted July 30, 2006 Why didn't he use his son's pee? He sounds like he would stoop that low.
Author P1xie Posted July 30, 2006 Author Posted July 30, 2006 OMG I can't believe you mentioned that. He did actually considered it but decided he couldn't stoop that low. In this day in age to give up a job to me is insane. Especially to make that much. He makes more in a week than I do in two. I should say use to. Though I'm not against pot. I do not understand it. This guy is 38 years old! All his friends do it. I asked him if he knew anyone that didn't. He said no. I guess I'm looking at him as a "Al Bundy" (living like in highschool) loser!
Author P1xie Posted July 30, 2006 Author Posted July 30, 2006 I can't find no reason to stay. Yeah after six years I love him, but what is love if you don't like someone. At least when you like someone and you are having disagreements you can always go back to well I like him, he's a good person. If you don't you just go to nothing. I don't know if that makes sense. I don't want to leave until after his son goes home. It's not fair to put him through the drama. My b-f tries to manipulate me by suicide threats, crying, begging whatever whenever I try to leave. His son does not need to be a part of that. I'm tired of feeling guilty but most of all tired of not being happy.
Outcast Posted July 30, 2006 Posted July 30, 2006 Yeah after six years I love him, but what is love if you don't like someone. It's not 'love'. It's habit. Or addiction. Or something unhealthy but definitely not love.
Author P1xie Posted July 31, 2006 Author Posted July 31, 2006 All of my siblings and my mom say he almost identical to my father. Which isn't good. One of my brothers said the problem is "You love what you know". I hope he's not right because I don't want to go through this again.
amaysngrace Posted July 31, 2006 Posted July 31, 2006 One of my brothers said the problem is "You love what you know". I hope he's not right because I don't want to go through this again. He could be right, I hate to say. But the good news is you can see the signs if you know what you're looking for. And then avoid anyone who has those characteristics.
Tony T Posted July 31, 2006 Posted July 31, 2006 Ok, let me get this very clear. Your boyfriend, who has a child, is quitting his job because he prefers to smoke pot instead? Have you finished packing yet?
CrushedOrgans Posted July 31, 2006 Posted July 31, 2006 Why didn't he use his son's pee? He sounds like he would stoop that low. best...answer...on ls...ever.
abitconfused Posted July 31, 2006 Posted July 31, 2006 I would agree, start packing. His priorities are all messed up. I would have never gave him anything and if he wanted his job then he should have quit the smoke. Sounds like his life evolves around it.
AwkwardMan Posted July 31, 2006 Posted July 31, 2006 29$/hr is a lot? What kind of pay will he be getting at his next job? (How's that going?)
a4a Posted July 31, 2006 Posted July 31, 2006 29$/hr is a lot? What kind of pay will he be getting at his next job? (How's that going?) I heard pot dealers make pretty good money. He could be on the brink of a whole new career!
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