nadroe Posted July 30, 2006 Posted July 30, 2006 Me and my girlfriend, of over two years, broke up almost three weeks ago. We had a huge fight. I'd been stressed and dealing with the thought that my mother might have cancer (which my g/f at the time didn't know), and was dealing with a ton of other really big issues. I'd told her before hand that I was stressed and to try and not pick fights or snap at me. Well, she picked a fight. I didn't flip out at all, I just responded back without cursing at her or yelling. Then she "flipped out". She kicked me hard, hard enough that I threw and broke some things and told her to get out of my house, then I screamed at her to get out. She left and I cooled off for an hour or two before calling her back. She came back and decided she didn't want to be with me anymore. Which completely pissed me off, I didn't hit her or curse at her at all, she did and now she doesn't wanna be with me? With all these problems on my mind and now this I went insane; it scared her. I didn't hurt her at all though. After that all she was done, so she said. I want to get back with her badly, over two years down the drain... I've tried everything, talking to her like a decent person and explaining all of my feelings, telling her everything basically. Yet, she plays games. She either say that she doesn't wanna be with me/anyone right now or wants to move on. Or she'll tell me that she can't predict the future and doesn't know if she wants to get back together. A week ago, before our college class together ended, she would be touching me in a loving way like she'd used to. The way you do to someone you're with, and it pissed me off. I told her it did and she couldn't have it both ways. I'm not the only one who sees the games she's playing and how immature she is being. Now, I'm in deep ****. I've gotten her roses and recieved nothing in return (i just wanted a chance to work it out), I've called, I've not called, I've spent time with her in person, I've been nice, I've been mean, and I've tried hating her but I can't. I love her and have zero interest in other girls. She plays so many games, but I still see some hope. However, less hope in us than a few days ago. I don't know what to do really. I've spent a lot of time alone, thinking about myself and how I need to take care of me first. Yet, I still wanna be with her. She was the first person that I felt understood me and shared some amazing closeness with. She seems to be running away from all of this: she never wants to talk about it, she's out and about everyday, she won't tell me she loves me yet says, "if I tell you you're only going to feel that there's hope." I don't want to be with her RIGHT NOW. I want to work things out for the future. I've tried being friends (like she'd said she wanted) and it didn't work because it was too hard for her, apparently. I really don't want to lose someone who means so much, over nothing. We are young, but we are old enough to work this out. I'm just out of ideas and don't know what to do anymore. I just don't know what happened..
MrPot Posted July 30, 2006 Posted July 30, 2006 Research "No Contact" (NC) on this site and dedicate yourself to its principles.
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