I think im love w/ my best friend ... again gah i fall in the trap every time!

[unluckylove12]

Hi well my problem is, is that I think im in love with a guy whos been a very good friend for a very long time. And i want to be with him forever, I want to kiss him,I want to hold him, I really do think I love him, because there is not a day that goes by that I dont think about him, and I kno its really pathetic but I cant help it.

 

And now the worst part is, is that he just broke up with his gf *which I helped him get together with if I might add, very painful* but hes all the way in NY and im stuck all the way here in LA and i miss him so much.

 

But i know that i dont have any chance with him watsoever because he dosent seem intrested at all:(

 

I mean in the beginning of our friendship it seemed like he did, cause he was always flirting nonstop and always being charming, and thats wat made me click and start liking him, but once I started doing the flirting and the charm in return he completly didnt acknoledge it. He was even mean about it too. And he would start paying attention to other girls and...and it just seemed like he didnt care anymore at all.

For example, every morning in homeroom we would sit together but now when i came in he was sitting and talking with my best friend. It was like he knew that I liked him and was trying to tell me that I didnt have a chance.

 

I had seen this happen before to my best friend who used to like him. He would flirt, she would start to like him and thought she had a chance , and so one morning she came up to him and told him that she liked him and he told her she was crazy to even think she had a chance and walked away.

 

My friend was broken hearted

and he didnt give a ****

He was a complete and total FLIRT:eek:

 

I kno, I kno ur probably thinking, what the hell are you doing wasting your heart over this jerk right?

 

Well let me tell you, when i started noticing this sudden change of personality he had towards me , I saw wat had happened to my friend and this time I actually said something about it. So I asked him why he was being an ass, and he told me that he was moving to New york and he was going to miss me more than anyone else and just didnt want to get to close on his last days that he was here.

It was a weird gesture but I understood, he even sent me a card made out of carmal cubes saying Im sorry, my favorite candy

 

It was the sweetest thing anyone had ever said to me, and i knew him so well that I could tell if he wasnt lying and that he meant it.

 

Neways now hes in New york and finally broken up w/ his gf, but i cant get him cause im all the way over here and trust me I REALLY CANT JUST FORGET ABOUT HIM, ive tried, but he will always be in my heart.

 

I really do think I love him and I know i cant see him ever again

 

Ughh i hate my self for wanting things i cant have and ive caused so much pain over this stupid guy and ugghh i just hate it soo much

 

ok im done now glad i got it off my chest

 

if anybody has something theyd like to say please do so cause i really need some advice :(

 

Thank you for taking the time to read this, and if u didnt read all of it , thank you for atleast opening it

[norajane]

Not being able to stop thinking about him doesn't mean it's love. It's more likely infatuation because you think he's so great. Although it doesn't seem like it right now, you will get past it sooner or later.

 

Sooner if you go out and do things that you like - it's summer...you've got lots of free time to hang out at the beach and ask some cute guy to teach you to surf. Later if you sit around and do nothing but pine after him.