typical Posted July 26, 2006 Posted July 26, 2006 Look...I get really concerned that my equal wont find me...It makes me panic sometimes, because I really want to find whoever it is, but they always elude me.....I want to be caught, I want the wild abandon, the rawness..when I find them, I will devour them. I want to get lost with them, but I am beginning to think its not gonna happen, and at this rate, I am so starved for it that I am afraid that I am going to make it happen instead of it happening naturally....does anyone know what I mean?? anyone? anyone at all??
blind_otter Posted July 26, 2006 Posted July 26, 2006 I know what you mean, typ. But I stopped feeling that way when I started exploring my spiritual side. I know that sounds cheesy, but it's true. For me, anyways.
mariJane Posted July 26, 2006 Posted July 26, 2006 ya dude are you older? nice pic! lol sounds like you full of passion, if you live naturally full of passion, it will happen naturally i would think, i dont think you will force something to happen i think you are full of a consuming passion, just keep looking at yourself objectively and you will always be ok, sounds like you know yourself, that is a trait to keep forever regardless anything, so i think you will be ok. when it happens you will be watching to make sure you arent creating it. i think your ok
mariJane Posted July 26, 2006 Posted July 26, 2006 blinds right for sure with the spirituality! helps relieve that
blind_otter Posted July 26, 2006 Posted July 26, 2006 I dunno. My whole life I desperately wanted that feeling. The absorption in someone else. That ecstatic union. I don't think it can happen really. Especially if you are not yet whole, yourself. If you're not whole, cleaving can do more damage than good.
Author typical Posted July 26, 2006 Author Posted July 26, 2006 No, I am not a dude. As far as spirituality is concerned, that is all entertwined with finding my equal.....it makes me so mad that it actually makes me horny....I know, that makes absolutely no sense...but.....I need them to bump into me soon, because I am going nutty... Thanks Kitten and Mari I knew you would understand, Otter But, do you guys think that they are out there, or are we all just settling...I hope not, because that is eerie... What the hell is taking them so long??
KittenMoon Posted July 26, 2006 Posted July 26, 2006 I dunno. My whole life I desperately wanted that feeling. The absorption in someone else. That ecstatic union. I don't think it can happen really. Especially if you are not yet whole, yourself. If you're not whole, cleaving can do more damage than good. I don't think it's an all the time feeling. I feel like I felt like this with my ex sometimes... sometimes not. But for all our differences, and all our similarities, I feel like we had an underlying animalistic quality (and I'm not saying this like a crazy sex thing) to our relationship. And it's difficult to move past him remembering this feeling. But I think that feeling is the one you should look for in that "ecstatic union", even if it's not present ALL the time. It should be there sometimes, preferably most of the time. But you're right it shouldn't be forced, and it can be detrimental if you're still not quite "whole" as a person.
KittenMoon Posted July 26, 2006 Posted July 26, 2006 ...it makes me so mad that it actually makes me horny....I know, that makes absolutely no sense... Makes total sense to me.
mariJane Posted July 26, 2006 Posted July 26, 2006 sorry bout the dude thing i agree settling sounds so negative huh! i wouldnt settle but i will also do my best to not let something real pass me by. i think as long as you are whole and spiritual like blind said that you are full of passion, thats ok, whoever your mate is will like that!!!!!!!!! but i wouldnt entertwine the spirituality with it or you might do what you originally wrote make it happen instead of it happening, i think anyways ya know?
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