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A moments weakness

Ruff Ryder

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For the first time in a long time I had the weakness of trying to call or sending her a txt msg. Sitting infront of my PC and I want to mail her but I dont think I can.

 

I was on my way to work, (just moved into my new place about 30 km away from the ex) this was 3 hours ago. I pulled up to the traffic light and what do I see infront of me.... There she was as beautifull as she has always been in her car putting make up on in the mirrior (dont think she saw me).

 

I never thought it would have such an impact just seeing her again dropped my heart into my stommac. I think a tear may have rolled out whilst driving to work after I saw her. I know she is involved with someone.

 

Why does this get to me so much? 2 months NC and then this. Its hurtiing I missed everything about her all over again in the space of 2 seconds and the pain hurt and feelings were back. F$%# why?

 

Tomorrow Ill wake up and be strong again but now Im as weak as they get. DAMN. Thanks guys for reading...:(

laRubiaBonita Established Member

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so you are human and you have feelings.... nothing soo wrong with that at all.

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WOW that put it into perspective for me thanks... :)

 

Well it is funny that the few things that you may have controll over (your thoughts and feeling) are the things that always bite you.

 

Let me explain that (this is my oppionion and I know some may think its crazy)

 

If you miss some one this needs to start of as a thought first you cant miss someone without thinking about them. I brlive that you have complete controll over your thoughts and that gives you controll over your feelings if used correctly.

 

Im ok now I realize that we are not together any more that doesnt mean I care less for her it just mean that we are not ment to be together now. I do want her back, but that may never happen all that can be done is heal and move on and if one day the universe puts us in a situation to be together then it will be diffrent but for now Im going to make me no1 and be happy and just live my life with or with out her... :) PHEW feel better now . Thanks again

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