yk_2006 Posted July 21, 2006 Posted July 21, 2006 We met during my senior year in college, he has 2 more years left. I left my boyfriend of 1.5years for reasons of incompatibility, distance, cultural barriers, emotions. stress, money, age difference (i am older) and etc....we live in different states, a bus ride away but he is still in college and I am in the real world, living on my own. He is going through hard family issues at home with soem of his family members and the fact that I left him has been very straneous on both of us. I fobid us to talk as often as we used to, no emailing of any sort....he still calls me, and i return his calls but yet I still push him away. He went out last night, got very drunk, called me and said that he only needs me and will always love me and never let go. He called me back today and appoligized but doesn't understand why I would leave him if he is so good to me and all the times we spend together when we do see each other. Ofcourse, I want to see him...i don't tell him that. I did tell him that will only damage us emotionally. he said he will go through the paint to see me...i think the same. If i call him back right now and say I want to see him after work, he will be there, he will drive up for miles. I want to so much but I know I will later remidn myself of all the reaosns I left him. I have no mother to talk to about this or any personal stress, I only have my grandparents as my family, best friend lives in a different state as well...we see each other rarely. I've become very stressed to the point that I feel that my mind is just a dark, dull, cloud....I need someone to guide me and advise me what to do at this point.....It is all as if I left him because I love him.
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