almostthere Posted July 20, 2006 Posted July 20, 2006 the past two nights i have been dreaming of my bf's exwife. the first night we were only doing small talk and she was really overweight. She yelled at me at a family party (my bf's side) and said i didnt pay to use the bathroom. (it was a pay toliet). I corrected her and showed her my quarters. then the dream was over. last night my dream had her in it again and i she came over and was now really pretty and very friendly towards me. I dont understand why i am dreaming of her. I dont think about her ever. we dont talk about her at all and she never calls anymore. But she just keeps entering my dreams. I have been thinking of my exh lately and how i wish he could have been this supportive and understanding when we were married. We wouldnt have divorced then. Lately he has been spending more time with the kids and he watches them while i have to run to the library for school. we agree on what day either friday or saturday night they will spend the night and we talk like friends all the time. Sometimes i wish i could have held out but i had to leave. he was emotionally abusive. I guess what really started me thinking about that was my daughters graduation. If me and her dad were there we both would have shouted loudly for her. But only i did. my bf didnt feel the same emotions i did because she is not his daughter. sometimes i feel badly because no one can love her like her own dad can and i cannot be with him to give her this experience together. i dont love him anymore at all. I am not attracted to him any longer so any thought of going back is out of the question. sometimes though i wish i werent. I do love my bf though a lot. he is exactly what i am looking for. i just wish that he would be a little more involved with the kids. he does great please dont get me wrong...i just wish he would spend a little more time with them like playing games or reading or some of the things biological dads do with their kids out of love. i dont know....
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