Cathy Posted July 19, 2006 Posted July 19, 2006 About a month ago, I wrote about the situation that led me to move out of my BF's apartment. I have been staying with a very generous friend for about a month and a half. Over that time, my BF and I have discussed things at length. I think it is over now. This is hard, and I am very sad, but I know, deep down, that it is the right thing. It took a long time to get to this point--over six months. In that time, I have had an on-again off-again affair with my boss, a MM who is now separated from his wife. In the end, it came down to my BF telling me he was done. My inability to figure things out, or to feel strongly enough about him to come back seems to have led him to this. I am looking for my own apartment. So many people have been so supportive. Actually, my boss has been wonderfully patient (he was not at first). Right now, he is acting more like the friend I need him to be. Someday, in a while, maybe we can see what else we might become. I feel awful that I have done this to my BF, but it never would have worked. I realize that now. It doesn't make me any less sad, or any less guilty about things. One difficulty is retrieving my things. I really don't want to go back to his apartment. And I cannot ask my boss to help me move. I had a long talk with my dad about it all. I was thankful that he did not give me the "I told you so" speech--he was against my moving in with my BF last summer when I did it. Anyway, I just wanted to update.
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