cookie411 Posted July 12, 2006 Posted July 12, 2006 I am just going to get right into my problem. Ok, my boyfriend and I have been in a LDR for a little over a year and a half and we haven't been having the most productive conversations. We have more arguements than positive conversations. And we both try to get our points across and neither of us know what the other is trying to say or cares. But that is just a bit of insight on the state of our relationship. Last week we were on the phone like any regular day. Well as our conversation was coming to an end because of my other engagement at church he said somthing to me that I could not believe he was saying to me. This may not be a big issue, and I might have taken it a little over board but i felt that he should not have said this to me. What he said was that if I wasn't his girlfriend that some other woman that was hosting a t.v. show would be. Now this may seem a bit immature for me to be upset about that but once I saw the person he was talking about I told him that he could find a chick that looked like her anywhere. So I asked him what was it that he found so attractive about her and he told me her facial structure and her skin tone. And thats all he would say. Now to be perfectly honest I dont have the best looking body, I mean I am not a cow but I am no beyonce. So I asked him was it about her body and he told me no. I found that totally hard to believe. Then the weekend and the beginning of this week he told me that he had dreams about him either kissing a woman " passionately" or flirting with a woman. And none of these women were me. So of course I had a problem with that. But then I though ok maybe I am over reacting about this as well so I called my mother up and asked her how would she feel if my step-father had those kinds of dreams consecutively would she be upset and she told me simply "HELL YEAH" so I thought ok if he was dreaming these kinds of dream 3 nights in a row then he must have been thinking about doing so. But he claims he hasn't. But something tells me that he is lieing and that he has a problem with my appearance. And just today he got a loan for about $65,000. He lost all his belongings in Katrina and he needed money to get on his feet, to pursue his acting career. But I think he is going to use that to make his appearance, and not necessarily is physical appearance, more appealing to other women. And I am just not confident enough with myself to "go up against" other women of sexier, if that is a word, appeal. I am just paraniod or are these feelings legit?????
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