AloneForever Posted July 12, 2006 Posted July 12, 2006 Well, girlfriend of 2 years left me 2 months ago. Since then, i'm just completely broken, devestated .... i'm not over her, altho i'm trying every single day. One day i'm ok, next five i'm not. No matter how hard i try theres always something to remind me of her ... some smell, someone saying her name .... Like today, i've remembered what fun we had on vacations, and we were supposed to go on one in, well, 5 days now, and i just broke down, cried a little, drank a little, etc .... Oh, i'm on antidepressants, not just because of her (tho, thats a large part), but because of my current situation in life. I'm alone ... i have no friends, everyone i knew has turned their back on me. No one wants to be around me, i never notice that while i was with her, but it is the truth. I can't go out, try to forget her, cause i have no one to go with. I'm not attractive or handsome to girls, so dating is not an option for me. I have tryied and every time i got: "Oh, you're not my type". Nicely wraped up, so they don't have to say i'm ugly. No one ever said a nice thing about my looks ... so, that added a bit to overall situation. You can imagine i have self-esteem problems, so i've droped dating (trying to date) all together. Immature as this sounds, i've made peace with being alone all my life, like in not having some to like me. I know i'm still young, you're time will come, comments, lalalala. But i'm just feeling like i'm missing out on my life. You know ... everyone is dating, or hanging out ... and i'm ... i'm infront of my computer, ffs. I have some plans, like going to the gym ... but who will i meet there? no one. I want to go into skydiving, but thats in another city, so no chance for meeting someone. And when i say meet someone, i mean someone to hang out with, have fun with ... I just had to wrote this, get it off my chest ... because i'm 20 ... and i'm tired of this life, pain and everything. (no, i wont kill myself:) )
KittenMoon Posted July 12, 2006 Posted July 12, 2006 The girls who say "you're not my type" at 20, suddenly find you are their type at 25-30 when they're done with the superficial immature pretty boys who can't commit. Do you have any interests that you could pursue in form of a club? That's a good way to meet new friends. Or try something you'd never ever try. How about wheel-throwing pottery? It's very therapeutic.
Guest Posted July 12, 2006 Posted July 12, 2006 The only thing I can say is, you judge yourself on your physical attributes and how you say no one is attracted to you. All I can to that is, is that your ex was attracted to you for a particular reason, a particular quality that no one else possessed. I know for a FACT, that someone else in the future will be attracted to you also.
JCD Posted July 12, 2006 Posted July 12, 2006 " I have some plans, like going to the gym ... but who will i meet there? no one. I want to go into skydiving, but thats in another city, so no chance for meeting someone." How do you know you won't find someone there? Couple days ago I read a post how a guy went skydiving the first time in his life and found a girl there as well who made him forget his problems. You have good 10 years to go out and just have fun with girls, no committments, etc. By the time you're 30 you will find what you want out of life by then I hope. Maybe it will be life w/o girls but at least you'll be contempt and it'll be your own choice. Not because you can't get a date. Girls don't care about looks, at least the type of girls you should be after, imo. They care about your personality and how strong you are and whether you can take care of them when they count on you and be a good listener and partner, etc. Like KM said. So snap out of it man!
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