alamalmo Posted July 11, 2006 Posted July 11, 2006 hi...i m from bangalore,india....dis happened in march'06, this girl used to live with her bro, who is also my close friend...i liked her very much but could not say her as i thought if she does not like it, it may effect my friendship with her brother too...i did not have any conversation with her untill she left this city to her native after completing her dental course...after 6 months, she came back in feb'06 last week...i saw her n all the slept emotions woke up...by chance those days her bro was out of station n she was staying with her cousin sister...she was using her bro's cellphone, when i came to know it, i called her n had a formal chat with her...then i sent her one sms n asked her if she can help me with my dental problem...then i again called her, n she told me the medicine...then i asked her one thing to enquire abt...she said, ok...i'll tell u tomorrow(sorry if u r getting bored)...so in this way we had some formal chats...then onwards we kept sending some forwarded sms, jokes etc to each other....i thought she may be interseted...so next day...10th of march'06,friday...i called her....after having some words with her, having ensured abt her good mood n interset in talking to me, i just said her...'i like you very much n want to marry you...', she was paused for a while but i think was not surprised, perhaps she was also expecting for such a move from my side...'then she said....ya,fine...but my parents will make the final decision abt my marriage...'(in India, mostly parents decide where the daughter will be married)...i said, if your parents also agree....she said then i have no problems...'...'then after some chat, we hanged up'...i was on 7th heaven...then she sent an sms,asking me abt my carrer n my native place...i told her...n in this way things went up....i tried to call her in evening but she was busy...then in night she was tired n did not talk n slept early...i felt bad....next morning...the first sms i got was that of her....she sent a rose n said,this is filled with all my wishes for you...however she also said to me that may be her parents do not agree....i said,give me some time...we'll try..she said...OK always. ...on sunday...i asked her to come to meet me...she came for 5 mins....she was so happy to meet me...i could read the love on her face, however she did not say it...but i said her clearly that i love her...n gave her a book as a gift, a letter n a chockolate...then we left...in night we talked for an hour....then early morning we talked for another hour...she had her flight back to her native at 7AM...so she left n gave me her cellno. she was using at her hostel(doing internship)n asked me to concentrate on my work n not to think much abt her...was i gonna listen to such advises??? after all this happened, i was totally lost in her love...her flight was late n i was so worried trying her number...after delay of 2 hours, i got to contact her...she told me that flight got late n she will call me when she reaches hostel...then she sent an sms...it said 'i miss bangalore so much, getting tears in my eyes, i hate this place...' then she reached her hostel, n we talked at night...n this went on everynight n morning continuously for 2 weeks....every night she used to send me a sweet sms which made me more crazy for her love...however she always refrained herself from saying me 'I LOVE U'...however i used to say it every now n then... then started the bad times...i dont know what happened, but her interest in me started declining....she kept talking to me, but most of the times she was listening only...but now i was so much in love with her that, a return was simply unthinkable for me...i was not ready to accept the hard reality...n she kept talking to me as a friend or may be perhaps she knew that if she stops talking to me, it will just kill me...one day i asked her....'did u never love me???' she said...NO....i was so foolish n so much in love with her that even than i kept talking to her...keeping a hope to marry her...things kept going on n she seemed not interseted wven in friendhip with me...one day she told me that her parents have selected one guy for her marriage, n she has also shown positive signs for him... the news came like a bullet from the bolt for me....i could not speak...i just hanged up...n then sent her a emotional message...she replied... ...'i m sorry if it made u feel bad....u r good guy n 'll get a good girl'...i deleted all her messages...n even her number....but next was the most testing time ahead of me....the world seemed to have no fun n only sorrow for me...my job started fetting effected...n then i left for another city for one week, where lives my friend n cousin...however moving there did not help me much...one day, in deep frustration i called her...she said, i trid ur number, how are you...i said...has ur marriage been confirmed with that guy...then she told me the secret...she told me that she is now in love with someone else...it was another shock for me...my friends said that, man how u can love her anymore..?..now u should hate her...she has ditched u....but i kept loving her n called her many times...but she did not change her mind...one day i talked to her cousin sisiter, who told me that she has stopped talking to that guy too, coz her parents did not agree to marry her with him, however she likes him.... one day she(my ex) called me and asked sorry if she has done something wrong with me...i didnt say anything....after that one of my friend said, her call may be a try to come back...so i called her n told her that i still love her...she said in clear tone...'plz dont call me, ur calls now irritates me...i m not going to marry u at all'...she talked in such a tone, that i didnt call her again.... now friends....can u tell me the answer of the question which always keep bothering me...."did she love me ever?...did she betray me?...for my condition,is this only my nonrealistic approach that is responsible?...or is her change of mind is responsible for it?
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