Jonny Posted July 10, 2006 Posted July 10, 2006 Hi there, I'm new to the community. I've had a lot of hurt in the past little bit, but where do I begin? I met my ex-girlfriend at a convention for foreign students last year, and we didn't really talk until she was on her year away. FYI, we're both from the same area of Canada. To make a long story short, things sort of clicked from there and we decided we'd give dating a try when she got back home. However, being young, that wasn't enough, so we decided to give each other the boyfriend/girlfriend tags and swore to be faithful to one another. I booked a flight to see her just before she flew home because I knew how much she loved her life in her home away from home. When I got there, I made a horrifying discovery - I'd gotten the suspicion that the friend she kept on talking about was more than a friend, and then my suspicions were confirmed with an anonymous e-mail that revealed...well, let's just say that they got really friendly. Of course, I was devastated - how could someone who'd I'd talked with daily for almost ten months tell me that everything was alright? I should have been glad with that, until she told me that during her tour, that things changed - she changed - and that even though she's back home now, she's got intense feelings for this other guy, across the ocean. I made all the mistakes - pleaded, begged, swore my love for her - and only now realized it's pushed her away, and I really wish I'd known how to deal with things better. It's not 'officially' over, but I'm pretty sure the writing's on the wall. I've been going up and down for the past few weeks, trying not to blame myself, but it's been hard, you know? I started NC a little while ago, and it's been so hard to not break it - I've been strong. Man...I don't even know what I'm trying to say. I guess I'm just looking for a place to rant a little bit, and get some bottled-up-things out of me.
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