NightsInWhiteSatin Posted July 3, 2006 Posted July 3, 2006 I'm so sick and tired of hiding under clothes and hating everything about my appearance. I've worked out my ideal weight for my height on a chart and i need to loose 2 stone or just under. I'm just starting my new diet and exercise regime today, i feel ugly and frumpy etc etc probably because it's that time of the month and i always feel that way during that time of the month....but it's effecting my motivation hugely....i'm trying to be optimistic.... I can do it i know i can, it's just getting going at the minute that's the problem. I've found my weight has effected my self esteem and confidence and ability to be myself around others...i tend to hide and want to blend in and wear big baggy clothes. I feel like everytime i try to get somewhere i never reach it and get knocked back for some reason or another...give up and go comfort eat...then quit the diet etc. I get confused, when i don't see people for ages and then i see them they come out with comments like 'oh you look like you've lost weight' or 'you've lost weight on your face'....and its everytime i see people...so people do notice i have that extra stone or 2 they're not blind...but they're always wrong...i've gained not lost... For example last time i saw a friend a year ago i was 9 stone...the lightest i've ever been lol and when i saw him a year later i wasn't far from 10 stone and he said 'If you don't mind me saying you've lost loads of weight on your face it's the first thing i noticed when i saw you'....what??? i'd gained almost a stone!!!!!!!! and i told him i'd gained weight and he was like 'no i'm not sayin it to be nice you really have'. Any way, everywhere i go people are always commenting on my weight and how i've lost some etc...and i don't want that anymore....i want to reach the ideal weight for my height and stay there...so there's no need for people to come out with comments about how im loosing weight because i wont need to loose any...if you catch my drift? I want to be like my sister...she's the same height and build and she's the perfect weight for her/our height and no one ever says to her 'you've lost weight' because she doesnt need to....they just say 'looking great as always' then they give me the 'you've lost weight' which is just becoming a put down...because...when they say it and i've not lost weight or infact put weight on it obviously means they think i could do with loosing weight. I went to see some relatives a few days ago, i've gained a stone since i last saw them, and yep they said 'wow you've lost tonnes of weight' i just wanted to cry....because it's total bullsh*t how can they not tell ive put a stone on. I've just had enough of the issue with weight i'm literatly dragging around with me...and the bullsh*t comments that a probably meant to make me feel better but actually make me want to cry because theyre bullsh*t...the scales dont lie. Someone lock me in a cupboard and feed me dry bread and water for a few months. I'll pay you? lol
justagirliegirl Posted July 3, 2006 Posted July 3, 2006 How tall are you? 10 stone doesn't seem like a lot.
Author NightsInWhiteSatin Posted July 3, 2006 Author Posted July 3, 2006 I'm 5ft 4, but i have quite a small frame so it's quite noticeable
Tim'sAngel Posted July 3, 2006 Posted July 3, 2006 I'm 5ft 4, but i have quite a small frame so it's quite noticeable I know exactly what you mean sweetie. I am 5'2 and weigh around 128-130. It might not sound like a lot but being so small every pound shows!! I never lost all my baby wieght and he is now 18 months!! I finally went on a diet with my SO. Neither of us are overweight, just not at the weight we wanna be. I do not eat over 1500 calories a day. I count them as I go along. Its kind of like having a bank account. I count how many I've eaten and then calculate how many more I have to spend that day. I started dropping inches within only a week of the diet. We also started a work out routine and after a month I'm noticing my body is started to shape up and I am fitting into all my pre baby clothes!! It's so exciting!! I know its hard to actually start the diet, but once you do, and you start to see results it is so worth the effort!!!
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