BUTAFLY Posted July 2, 2006 Posted July 2, 2006 I have been getting by just fine. I think about him less and less Until I played that CD...The one we use to listen to while we took long drives. The one that played in the car every time I went to his house. It became ours...our song. I thought I was over him...I mean all the things he has done to me I should hate him, but I don't, I can't. I guess shouldn't have played that cd- listen to our song because it brought me right back to the day he dropped the bomb on me. I found myself driving pass is new home. I could see the glow of the TV in the dark room thinking to myself, is he holding her the way he held me? Does he lightly scratch her back the way he did mine? The thoughts drive me crazy. I'm so tired of feeling this way. Why do I do this to myself?
KittenMoon Posted July 3, 2006 Posted July 3, 2006 You're doin the exact right thing. Listen to that CD until it becomes a familiar thing outside your relationship, and loses its meaning. Don't empower an item, a song, or a place with your pain. We have enough memories that can't be erased to do that with.
Diver012 Posted July 3, 2006 Posted July 3, 2006 Agreed, if the CD brought back memories, then your not done mourning yet. It is completely natural to have set backs. Im just glad that Valentines day is a long ass way away. That will be a tough day for me I think. I hope not...
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