royallydistrait Posted July 21, 2006 Posted July 21, 2006 When I ask myself how am I feeling... I am not sure how I am feeling I have lost the person that I have loved for almost 3 years to nothing but long distance. This makes me very sad and confused. How can something be so perfect then go into shambles when the love of my life goes home after graduation. I just feel horrible. I can't eat, sleep, or think about anything else. I feel like a lost child at the age 22, why??? I am jut lonely now and I don't know who to turn and talk to about it!! How could someone I love so much do this to me?!?! That is how I feel right now. I jut can't wait till the day I wake up and realize that I'm going to be okay.
trebon Posted July 21, 2006 Posted July 21, 2006 I feel like I am being dismantled day by day and I am getting to the next on fabricated hints of a light at the end of the tunnel. I feel I am being completely stabbed in the back by the one person I have ever trusted with myself and as a result I have no faith in myself. I feel totally alone in the world and that I cant bare the thought of another day because I dont want to be here anymore. Id rather feel anything but this pain and dispair. Other than that im ok!
dominsane Posted July 23, 2006 Posted July 23, 2006 How do I feel? It's been two weeks since my ex-fiance broke up with me. In one week, it would be our first anniversary. He's been hanging out with some girl from work, but he says he still loves me. We got over some things yesterday, and we talked and kinda joked about how he thought I was stalking him...I apologized, and he forgave me. We talk every day, just not as much, or on the phone. He works at the mall..which I went to often, even before we started dating. When we started going out, he told me that I changed his life. He quit smoking, he quit stealing, he quit lying, and he told me that I let him be himself.(because every other girlfriend was controlling..and changed his style...and he's not the only one that i've heard that from) I'm his brother's girlfriend's best friend. I'm friends with his brother. Before I met him, I had no life. Seriously, I have one good friend, no other friends I hang out with, and I did nothing all day when I got home from school. I'd sit in my cramped room and go online. After I met him, he was my life. Any spare time I had was spent with him. I lost my virginity to him, he went to my prom, my graduation, I helped him through his grandfather's death... He was nice, and almost perfect, he never lied to me, never yelled, no matter how much I wanted him to(yell). And two weeks ago, today(around 1130pm) he broke up with me while I was 800 miles away from him. At first he said we were on a break..for two weeks...then a few days later, I came home, I went to his house to talk. We didn't talk much, and I just sat there while we stared at each other. I told him I wanted to kiss him. He said the same. But we still just sat there. He still had my picture on his nightstand, but he wasn't wearing his ring...like I was. Right now, honestly, I never thought I'd feel this rejected. It's like, he erased me completely, like I don't even exist. Like I never existed in the first place. And I don't like it one bit. After never having hurt me before, he all of a sudden decides that he needs time to himself, and that he has problems he needs to take care of, and he doesn't know if we can get back together. But he says he still loves me. I feel like sh*t. I feel like I shouldn't even exist right now. I have a headache. I feel like nothing can make me feel better, unless he took me back. I feel like the little tiny bit of hope is holding me back in denial. Sorry for making this so long. Once I start writing, I have to get everything down. So I feel like my heart has been ripped out, beaten up, then thrown back in. That's how I feel.
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