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[Bazeballfreak011]

Ok as I stated in a previous thread, my gf and I broke up about 3 weeks ago. We recently got into a huge fight because she said I didn't care anymore for her just because we were friends. I think that was a cop out because she is with someone else and just didn't want me aroudn to either get hurt by it or possibly come back in the picture or whatever. The funny thing is, the kid is a complete loser. I don't think he's not high for more than an hour of his day. He's the exact opposite of what I am. She actually has drinking issues because of her father being a prior heavy drinker. I found that out the hard way when I went to a party and got drunk, we got into a huge altercation. Anyways, this kid is drinking all the time too. What's her deal? Like, is this the phaze where she tries to find that bad guy and turn him good, and pretty much tell everyone to screw off because she'll do what she wants? I feel like a lot of times I'm totally over her and her crap because this is the second time she's left me and dated someone else within a few weeks of us breaking up. I'm done going thru that with her, its not how I want to live my life. But it still hurts that she chooses him as my replacement. Almost like, I'm not obviously worth much to replace if he's gonna fill my shoes. Over two years of dating and she picks a loser to fill my shoes. I love it. Like I've woken up and been totally miserable and pissed off because shes doing this. I'm pretty sure its just a phaze. I jsut want to totally be over her. Yesterday I got so pissed, I threw away ever memory we had, with the except of a few pics. Every note, every card, all the pics off my camera and comptuer and phone. LIterally just about everything. I did it for two reason. Theres no way, even if by some far chance we got back together, could ever pick up where we left off. At this stage, we would hve to totally start over. Second, I just want to be done, I wanted closure that shes outta my life for good. I'm actually kind of getting to know another girl and might start to take it to the next level. The last two nights I had been having this same crappy dream about goign to a party with this new girl and running into my ex. Like my ex, pulled me aside and was just talking about my new girl and saying about how I look so happy and she made a huge mistake, the whole 10 yrds. Then it got really loud and we couldn't really talk so she took me into a bedroom so we could finish. And yeah, one thing led to another and me and my ex wound up leaving the party a couple again. I don't ever want nething like that to happen cuz I'm really crazy about this new girl and I really like her a lot, I just wanna be totally over my ex.

 

Any advice?