KittenMoon Posted June 29, 2006 Posted June 29, 2006 Bleah. Was driving to hang with a friend tonight and I had to see my ex's cvnt friend and his roomie walking down the road. I would have been happy to never see her ever again. It pisses me off that she's basically replaced me as the alpha female in their apt. Of course I was also like... if they are there... where is my ex?* It was late for him to be working, and if he was working, or out of town, or wherever, why is she hanging out alone with a single guy at his apt when she has a bf? (Oh right, she's a drama queen attention whore...) My biggest happiest wish EVER would be that she cheated on her on/off bf with my ex's roomie, and my ex would finally see her for the person she is. Ug, but it's such bad karma to think those thoughts... Still, they were walking a direction that led them away from my ex's apt, away from all the local restaurants, away from anywhere they might walk to except the cvnt's apt, which was a good walk away and it was still light enough that there was no reason he would walk her home. Oh well, whatever. I'm mostly just annoyed at having to see her. Arg. Venting. *the ex emailed me saying he still couldn't get over me and he still might want us to be together, etc just a few days ago, so I don't figure he's on a date or anything
fabulousgal Posted June 29, 2006 Posted June 29, 2006 your lucky to be getting emails KM, must say I am jealous.... and I understand being annoyed...i hate being "replaced" as the girl of the crew/house whatever. and i hate seeing his friends out, bc then I am like oh crap where is heeee?????????????????? sigh*
Sand&Water Posted June 29, 2006 Posted June 29, 2006 *the ex emailed me saying he still couldn't get over me and he still might want us to be together, etc just a few days ago, so I don't figure he's on a date or anything That's not so bad afterall. I think. Don't you have some spec of hope? Don't you want to talk it through with him? He had the gut to e-mail you, for a reason. You occupy his mind. It must be very annoying. I know. But, just give yourself time. Cheers.
Author KittenMoon Posted June 29, 2006 Author Posted June 29, 2006 That's not so bad afterall. I think. Don't you have some spec of hope? Don't you want to talk it through with him? He had the gut to e-mail you, for a reason. You occupy his mind. It must be very annoying. I know. But, just give yourself time. Cheers. I've come to this conclusion: I am not ready to move onto another guy. He is apparently not ready to move onto another girl either. We are both confused. BUT since he did the breaking, he will have to do the mending. IF that's what he decides he wants. Which apparently is taking him some time to figure out. But since I'm not ready to move on, I can wait. If he moves on, decides we're really truly foreverly through, then that's that. If I come to a point in a few days/weeks/months where I know I am ready to move on, regardless of him, I'll know it and he'll have lost his chance. Basically I'm not making any rush decisions. I'm waiting for things to feel right, one way or another. Ok- so I ended up giving myself wicked bad dreams about this b*tch and my ex. Dreams like she was sleeping over his place in his bed. Not WITH him, but in the bed where I slept for so long. Arg. Then this morning I inadvertedly found out she's hanging out this weekend with the guy she flirted up seriously before she broke with her bf (who she's supposedly back with right now, but only got back with AFTER she pursued this other guy who wasn't single at that time but IS apparently single now). Oh my drama!!! I almost wish I was closer to this situation, just to be an audience to it. Then I remember how much I hate this brand of bullsh*t drama. And why is it even when I'm NOT cyberstalking, I end up finding stuff out? Oh, btw, in addition to the "he still isn't over me might want to be together" spews, he also said how he didn't want to get back together for many reason and he didn't think either of us had changed enough yet. But he did also admit to working on a personal problem of his I pointed out during the break up, an effort at cognitive personal growth that I rarely saw in him. So his sh*t is all over the map right now. >sigh<
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