Hello everyone just need some a lot on my mind

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Hello everyone I broke up with my g/f of 3 and half years because she cheated on me. She says the reason it happend was because I wasn't showing her attention and she didn't feel loved. We lived together because I moved to go to school and we felt that it would be a good idea we had been together for 2 years at the time. I'll hafta admit I was pretty busy sometimes I would get up every morning at 5:30am for school and would get out of school at 12:40 and go straight to work after school so sometimes I wouldn't get home until 8 at night. I hardly ever did anything with friends and when I did she said I was ignoring her so she says that were her reason but there is a lot more. She also didn't like the fact that I was goin to have to go to Orlando FL for Mercedes Grad training. Well anyhow the truth is is that I'm still very much in love with her and she says shes still in love with me she told me she screwed up and would do anything to get me back. With that said I thought maybe slowly things could get rebuilt and she said she knew I had to regain trust in her. Well things were goin fairly well we talked on regular basis but necessarily b/f g/f. Well Sat. my roomate and I went out and so she called when we were coming home and she had been drinking and so we were picking at her, well my roomate and I was going to the store but I had to stop and get gas well I left my phone in the car on speakerphone when she was on it and he was in the car. Well monday she told me that my roomate called her early monday morning and I was like how cause I never gave him her number, so she goes to tell me he asked for her number and she gave it to him and I asked her why and she said she didn't think it would be a big deal. She also said she called me back that same night to tell me he called her but I had put my phone on silent. Now the whole thing is now I don't know who to beleive the woman I loved for 4 years or my roomate I've known for 2 months. She said it was really messed up that I didn't beleive her and it was cowardly to not confront him. But my whole thing is even if he did call her hes not goin to tell me and so what am I supposed to do and I don't want to create tension or it very well could have been someone she knows. But she seems to be very upset about this and now I just don't know. I know she isn't my g/f but I still care about her. Sorry for the long post.