fabulousgal Posted June 22, 2006 Posted June 22, 2006 For the past few months, I've been battling with was this all a lie (my relationship). We broke up not bc one of our feelings changed, my ex just finally decided to tell me the truth about how his parents have expectations on him when it comes time to get married. And I don't meet those, for whatever reason. Now it may come off as a load of crap but in my culture this unfortunatley happens to a lot of women. Men are stuck between this lifestyle, and the values from our native country. Some of them turn out to be too big of pussies to stand up to parents, and it really sucks bc idiots like me who don't think it would happen to them, it did. So anyway, I spent months pining. I spent months wondering was it all a facade. And I won't lie, I still have those thoughts. But this morning, I woke up and said, you know what, I'm starting not to care. He made a boo boo, not me. I did all I could, and its his loss he's a pansy. I didn't fall and begin to love the person he turned out to be in the end, I fell for the guy that was living the lie in his head that he could somehow pull it off. And then he cracked. And I got hurt. I didn't adore the person he really turned out to be. And that is what I must accept now. I guess if I could do it all over again, I'd take my time. It is flattering I guess, that he let it go on for as long as he did, bc we were having a blast and enjoying one another. When he broke the news to me, I chose to walk, and we were both quite sad. I guess I should just be happy and trust my gut that I had enough confidence to leave someone that was pretty much spineless, and not stay in a relationship where I would be a secret....and probably broken up with later bc he'd be too scared to do anything about it. Too bad we had such a spark though *sigh*
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