Apathetic Posted June 21, 2006 Posted June 21, 2006 Ok can someone explain to me why I am so dumb? I decided about a month ago that I was cutting off all contact w/ my ex & that was it..Ok fine,fast foward until now.I havent seen him since May 16th & since then he moved on w/ someone starting as of last week,we have spoken but nothing special.During all this I told myself & him that I didnt care & that I wanted him out of my life but we always seemed to talk after that & I just couldnt kick him completely out. Now..We spoke yesterday & he told me to lose his numbers & that he cAnt be bothered anymore & that was that.I was actually mad at that even though ive told myself for weeks now that it really was over w/ us & that I have to move on.Why would I be upset about this when its what I have wanted? Did I really want it or was I trying to convince myself of that? I have known that it has been over but now that it is 100% Im kind of mad...just does not make sense!!
Poboy Posted June 21, 2006 Posted June 21, 2006 i think you still have some feelings left for the guy. Both of you want to move on and thats for the best . It will take time for you to get over , eventually over time it will happen. So if he asked not to call him , dont do it and if you want to move on , dont call him .
Author Apathetic Posted June 21, 2006 Author Posted June 21, 2006 Thats the thing though..I DO want to move on & know I HAVE to but why am I so upset that he is finally out of my life? Ive wanted this so why be mad? I have told myself that I was done w/ him & it was over & now that is actually is & I have no say in it,I am honestly upset over it. Shouldnt I be happy someone like him is out of my life? I feel so confused!
KittenMoon Posted June 21, 2006 Posted June 21, 2006 Shouldnt I be happy someone like him is out of my life? I feel so confused! It's not an overnight thing. Of course you are confused. I think you'll feel much better a few months out.
Author Apathetic Posted June 21, 2006 Author Posted June 21, 2006 I wish it were an overnight thing where I can go to bed sad & wake up as if he never entered my life.But this is reality & it hurts like hell.Whats strange is I catch myself thinking of the times we have had sex & such(kissing,messing around) & I lose my breath! This overwhelming feeling comes over & I have take a deep breath..Its like I am torturing myself w/ these & other thoughts,its really pathetic.He has moved on & here I am laying in bed at night losing sleep b/c I cant stop thinking about him. What really gets me is that he has clearly moved on & I feel like I havent.It hurts so much to know he doesnt care anymore & yet look at where I am at the moment.Whats worse than still caring & or having feelings for someone who has MOVED ON W/ SOMEONE ELSE! Im still stuck here like a fool.
Pantero Posted June 21, 2006 Posted June 21, 2006 He moved on and that's what's killing you. It's normal. There's nothing wrong with feeling shocked or angry over this. Trust me, if you would've found someone before him - he'd be in the corner of his room eating his heart out. The only way out is through...
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