NightsInWhiteSatin Posted June 20, 2006 Posted June 20, 2006 I can't sleep....bit lonely...making myself a lemsip hmmm yummy hehe, anyone else on here can't sleep?????????
dr strangelove Posted June 20, 2006 Posted June 20, 2006 What is LEMONSIP ? I havent been able to sleep properly for maybe 3 years. Except occasionally I hit a period of being on a normal sleep schedule. But when Im really depressed I end up staying awake til early in the morning till I pass out and I sleep through most of the day. When I first broke up with my ex I didnt even get out of bed most days. Its quite cozy there.
Author NightsInWhiteSatin Posted June 20, 2006 Author Posted June 20, 2006 Lemsip, tiz a hot drink...tastes nice...like hot lemon...tiz for colds and flu's..has paracetomal in it and things to make you feel all better! But i just like the taste...and hopefully the paracetomal will make my headache disappear too! You ever thought about sleeping pills huni? They sorted me out when i had really bad sleeping probs....worth a try!
the_alchemyst Posted June 20, 2006 Posted June 20, 2006 Well, it's not night here yet, but I doubt I'll be able to sleep when it is. I've had a sleeping problem ever since I was a junior in HS, which was some years ago. Normally I go to sleep anywhere between 2-4 am, to wake up anywhere between 6-8 am. On a normal night, I will get about 4 hours of sleep. Sigh. After me and my exbf split for the last time back in March, I too ended up curled up in a ball on my bed for several days; and yes, it is cozy there. For me, the late hours are the worst because they are when the thoughts sink in the most. I remember him so much and keep glancing on my phone, stupidly thinking that maybe I missed his call or something. Bleh. Lately, though, I seem to be surrounded my a puff of smoke every single night. Each night after 1 am, I get extremely restless, and sometimes I try to sleep, but to no avail. So, what I have ended up doing is reverting back to smoking. Each night I smoke about 10 cigarettes, and then go to sleep. Not being able to sleep sucks because you know you are all alone amidst the darkness of the night, which seems to parallel your inside. I think tonight's going to be worse, though, because it's barely 7 pm, and I already feel all over the place. EDIT: Hmm. I wonder if lemonsip is similar to TheraFlu.
Author NightsInWhiteSatin Posted June 20, 2006 Author Posted June 20, 2006 Well, it's not night here yet, but I doubt I'll be able to sleep when it is. I've had a sleeping problem ever since I was a junior in HS, which was some years ago. Normally I go to sleep anywhere between 2-4 am, to wake up anywhere between 6-8 am. On a normal night, I will get about 4 hours of sleep. Sigh. After me and my exbf split for the last time back in March, I too ended up curled up in a ball on my bed for several days; and yes, it is cozy there. For me, the late hours are the worst because they are when the thoughts sink in the most. I remember him so much and keep glancing on my phone, stupidly thinking that maybe I missed his call or something. Bleh. Lately, though, I seem to be surrounded my a puff of smoke every single night. Each night after 1 am, I get extremely restless, and sometimes I try to sleep, but to no avail. So, what I have ended up doing is reverting back to smoking. Each night I smoke about 10 cigarettes, and then go to sleep. Not being able to sleep sucks because you know you are all alone amidst the darkness of the night, which seems to parallel your inside. I think tonight's going to be worse, though, because it's barely 7 pm, and I already feel all over the place. EDIT: Hmm. I wonder if lemonsip is similar to TheraFlu. awww huni no guy is worth that much torture I'm not so sure what the history is between you both but do you really want to be with someone who doesn't think the world of you...who can just cast you aside....you know you're worth more than that and you dont deserve anything less than someone who worships the ground you walk on. Don't loose your happiness to this guy...that's who you are...and that's who someone will fall in love with forever one day.
the_alchemyst Posted June 20, 2006 Posted June 20, 2006 Aw, thanks for that. Yeah, I know I'm hurting myself by engaging in these acts, and I know that I can help it, but I'm scared of what will happen if I do. Smoking seems to be the only thing right now that can calm me down. Worship the ground I walk on, eh? Heh, I doubt that. I wouldn't have to be worshiped, though--just appreciated. But why can't you sleep, Nights? Is it because that ex is bugging you still?
Author NightsInWhiteSatin Posted June 20, 2006 Author Posted June 20, 2006 I find that one thing that has helped me alot through getting over the break up is determination...to show him what i can make of myself and my life without him...turn the fear, lonliness, unhappiness and heartbreak into fuel...rebuild...remodel yourself and your life...acheive the things you want...even if they're only tiny things to start off with...like getting out of bed at 9am every day and going for a swim...etc... At the moment everything im doing is for me...but also...theres that little part of me that wants to see the look on his face when he see's how happy and fulfilled me and my life is...which is kinda helping to fuel me along....dunno if that way of thinking will help you though...tiz worth a try. Yeah the ex is on my mind i suppose...just annoyed at him...he never did anything for me it was always about him...all i ever asked of him was one night alone with him once every two weeks...and he couldn't even manage that...why the hell did i stick with the guy for so long...just how low was my self esteem really!! lol yeah im annoyed at me too for that one i guess lol It just all seems like a big game to him...its like theres two different people in him...and i dont know who's the real him. I never felt loved by him...he'd say one thing and do another. Like when he dumped me...he carried on for weeks after phoning me and texting me and mailing me saying he still loved me and missed me...but when i phoned him one night he put the phone down on me twice and sent me a really nasty text telling me to pack it in trying to phone him coz im not helping anyone....it was one rule for him one rule for me. I'm so pi**ed off and annoyed at him for all he's done since the first day i met him including cheating on me with my best mate...im not sure a friendship would work because i'd end up coming out with some really nasty comment that would start a huge fight. Woah i've gone off on a rant here havent i hehe
the_alchemyst Posted June 20, 2006 Posted June 20, 2006 Wow--one night every two weeks?! I can't believe that . . . that statement gave me a complete new way to look at things. I am glad to hear that you are doing better. The determination you are showing is quite impressive, especially for someone your age. It seems that after a break up, you have two options: to mourn and weep over the loss of your beloved, or to gather all of the passion you have ever had and let it propel you towards happiness. In the end, you will most likely find happiness, whichever option you chose, but I suppose one is healthier that the other. Swimming?! Yes, I have tried to go swimming! I did that for a few weeks: I would get up ar 6 am (cause of school) and I would go to the gym to just plunge into the water. It was great therapy . . . until one day I was really emotionally messed up and ended up having one of my attacks. I haven't gone swimming since. Anyway, I have to commend you once again on that attitude you are displaying--I'm sure that in the long run (and maybe even not too long), your exbf will be nothing but a memory you'd rather not reminisce in. I try to think like you, but unfortunately for me I never seem to be able to gather all of that strength and end up falling back into the same slump. Sigh.
Author NightsInWhiteSatin Posted June 20, 2006 Author Posted June 20, 2006 I know what you mean...i have my slumping weeks here and there...i'm actually trying to get out of a slumping week at the moment. I hate going to public gyms etc, the effort is so hard to get out of bed for it to do the travelling etc and i know people who go there etc and it's exspensive so i recently invested my first wage in buying an excersize bike, a sit up bench thingy majiggy and some weights...yays! So now i have my own cheap little gym in my bedroom and i can sit on my excersize bike and look out of the window imagining im cycling to the chinese takeaway across the road hehe It's quite worth buying some cheap gym equipment...all mine only came to about £80 including home delivery....i was quite impressed...motivated me even more! lol You should look into it, might help I also find on days when you feel ugly and think that was one of the reasons he ended it etc and that if he saw you again he'd think 'eugh' ....i sometimes...one night every other week i think have a day where it really gets to me...and i cry...always at night before i go to bed so i wash my face and do my make up and hair like im going out somewhere really fancy and put my best clothes on and i look in the mirror and tell myself im pretty. It makes me feel a bit better...kinda sad and weird i know...but i dont get to dress up often or go out lol.
Diver012 Posted June 20, 2006 Posted June 20, 2006 I desperately want to quit smoking. I actually did with little effort when I was dating the Ex.. but I started again when she did.... Now im smoking more than ever cause of all this stress. I have tried to quit 3 times, and I cant even last 1 day.... it sucks I hate myself for smoking
Author NightsInWhiteSatin Posted June 20, 2006 Author Posted June 20, 2006 woah i just realized it's almost 4:30am...think i best get some shut eye or at least try to...might take a lemsip to bed with me! the suns coming up! nooooooo...i should really buy some proper curtains...lol night night hun, speak soon i hope xxx
Author NightsInWhiteSatin Posted June 20, 2006 Author Posted June 20, 2006 I desperately want to quit smoking. I actually did with little effort when I was dating the Ex.. but I started again when she did.... Now im smoking more than ever cause of all this stress. I have tried to quit 3 times, and I cant even last 1 day.... it sucks I hate myself for smoking Take up caffine instead of nicotine...i dunno...i managed to quit because i was skint....but i can't say quit your job. Maybe this will help...imagine telling your 6 year old kid you won't be around to see them grow up coz you're dying because of lung cancer....harsh i know...but it'll niggle away at you...maybe enough to quit one day. nighty night
kitten chick Posted June 20, 2006 Posted June 20, 2006 I can't sleep. Even took 2 sleeping pills. dammit
the_alchemyst Posted June 20, 2006 Posted June 20, 2006 I hope you have a nice sleep, Nights. Diver: Oh, let us try to quit together! Seriously, smoking is hard to let go, especially when you feel it's the only thing that keeps you from having some sort of manic attack. I have been smoking on and off ever since I was 14. I know, I know. It wasn't until I was 17 that I got into heavy smoking--going to at least one pack a day and getting all pissed and anxious if I couldn't have any. I quit cold turkey for my exbf. He did like the smell, and was always telling me it was bad for me and blah blah, so I decided to just stop, and I did. It was HARD, though. I had shifty eyes for weeks, but I managed. Now that he's gone, I fell back to what comforts me in my moments of loneliness: smoking. I think I'm picking the habit back up a little too hard, though; last night I went through a whole pack. So, yes . . . let us quit together.
eyeswideshut Posted June 20, 2006 Posted June 20, 2006 oh i have insomnia too. but last night i slept at 9pm because i hadn't slept all week and not a wink on Saturday. i gotta quit too. Did you ever read Allan Carr's book? Nights... do you work? are you okay?
the_alchemyst Posted June 20, 2006 Posted June 20, 2006 I think this thread attracted the insomniacs and the smokers. Ahh. Nope, I haven't read that book; first time I hear about it, actually. What's it about? And yeah, I have sleeping bouts like that, too. Sometimes I will go a day or two without sleeping, and end up sleeping a whole lot the following day to replenish. It's a nasty sleeping pattern, me thinks. But it's so hard to quit, especially when they taste like cherries. Oh, cherry Djarums. Oh, my.
eyeswideshut Posted June 20, 2006 Posted June 20, 2006 Allen Carr wrote a book Stop Smoking Now... I was a total smoker who smoked because I loved to. The book came with a 100% guarantee that it will make you quit otherwise you return it for a full refund. So I bought it thinking, NO ONE CAN MAKE ME QUIT. So I thought, I will see if I can get the refund. Well, by the middle of the book, I wanted to put it down because I was scared that it was going to make me quit. (and I had a trip to Cuba coming up so I couldn't finish the book just yet) But the book said: don't put me down yet, you can still smoke throughout the book, you are only allowed to quit at the very end of the reading. So I was like ok, let me get another pack. So i'm reading and smoking, (looked like a freak), and by the last paragraph I was a non-smoker. Then it took like three days of not smoking to realize how good I was, and my half full pack was still on my coffee table, and I was like: if I cave, I'm bringin the book back for a refund. Well I never caved. I went through Christmas, New Years, my birthday, all the holidays, not a puff. About a year and a half later, I picked up the book again, and thought, man, this is powerful stuff. and I went to the Dominican, and decided to smoke because i was so sure I could just read the book again and quit whenever I wanted. Now I just have to read the book again. I know if I do, I will quit again. I'd be curious to know if it works on anyone else.
Diver012 Posted June 20, 2006 Posted June 20, 2006 I think I will definetly be picking up that book.. thanks for the tip!!!
richardcruz Posted June 21, 2006 Posted June 21, 2006 I find that one thing that has helped me alot through getting over the break up is determination...to show him what i can make of myself and my life without him...turn the fear, lonliness, unhappiness and heartbreak into fuel...rebuild...remodel yourself and your life...acheive the things you want...even if they're only tiny things to start off with...like getting out of bed at 9am every day and going for a swim...etc... At the moment everything im doing is for me...but also...theres that little part of me that wants to see the look on his face when he see's how happy and fulfilled me and my life is...which is kinda helping to fuel me along....dunno if that way of thinking will help you though...tiz worth a try. This is awesome. All my life I have felt that I have had to overcome odds to get to where i'm at. I have always been fueled by others telling me what I coudn't do. Thats where I have always gotten my drive from. I guess I should see my breakup in the same way; come out better and stronger in the end.
Author NightsInWhiteSatin Posted June 21, 2006 Author Posted June 21, 2006 I find that one thing that has helped me alot through getting over the break up is determination...to show him what i can make of myself and my life without him...turn the fear, lonliness, unhappiness and heartbreak into fuel...rebuild...remodel yourself and your life...acheive the things you want...even if they're only tiny things to start off with...like getting out of bed at 9am every day and going for a swim...etc... At the moment everything im doing is for me...but also...theres that little part of me that wants to see the look on his face when he see's how happy and fulfilled me and my life is...which is kinda helping to fuel me along....dunno if that way of thinking will help you though...tiz worth a try. This is awesome. All my life I have felt that I have had to overcome odds to get to where i'm at. I have always been fueled by others telling me what I coudn't do. Thats where I have always gotten my drive from. I guess I should see my breakup in the same way; come out better and stronger in the end. yeps, turn every knock back into fuel....it won't be perfect all the time...you'll still have your bad days where you might cry and whinge and want to give up etc, but try to use that to make yourself even more determind to better yourself and succeed. Even though what drives you maybe your ex at first, eventually as you become stronger within yourself and move on with your life and become happier...maybe the drive will just be entirely for you...and you happiness and well being and then when you meet someone new...you'll be happy and fullfilled with your life and not as emotionally vulnerable as you were to start out with.
Author NightsInWhiteSatin Posted June 21, 2006 Author Posted June 21, 2006 And yeah, I have sleeping bouts like that, too. Sometimes I will go a day or two without sleeping, and end up sleeping a whole lot the following day to replenish. QUOTE] I've had no sleep whatsoever...and i'm doing an 11am-12pm shift...me thinks i'll be calling into the nearest coffee place on the way to work to get my daily caffine kicks!!!! I was doing so well before the ex tried to contact me...pfft he's such a moose! Is it wrong to want to scratch the skin off his penis with a cheese grater?????????? hehe.
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