Alexsoconfused Posted May 22, 2006 Posted May 22, 2006 We had been fighting not getting along, arguing all the time unhappy with our roommates etc. I had a feeling something was up with her and a coworker, (we all worked for the same company) and I asked her not to invite him to a party OUR friend was throwing. She invited him anyway. I got up for a drink and when I went back they were both gone, I went looking for them and found them at his car. The look on her face and the way he was touching her I knew something had happened. For a week she denied everything, then finally broke down and told me they had kissed and nothing else but emailing and conversations happened while having this secret relationship. I decided we both needed to date other people, get some more life experience because we had been together since we were 16 and are now 23. On a monthly basis we talk about our future together and she asks for reassurance that I love her and want to be with her and I do. I know she is sorry and regrets that her one choice hurt me and our relationship. She hasnt dated anyone. We’ve been broken up for a year and a half but constantly talk about a future together. For the last 6 months I’ve been dating a girl I’ve known since I was 18. She’s completely opposite to my first relationship. I honestly care for her and although I don’t think we'd be a good match in the long run I don’t know if its that I've never given a relationship with her any serious consideration because I'm constantly thinking about my ex and reassuring my ex that I love her or if its because I’m afraid of losing the dreams and plans that my ex and I have shared since we were 16. I told my ex that I care for this girl and that it had become more serious with her. She threatened that she could never be with me because she would be constantly reminded that I had sex with this girl and that she was no longer my first and only. I said sorry I never meant to hurt her but when she cheated on me it made me doubt things and I needed to follow what I felt. She yelled and screamed, I’ve never seen her like this before, and said that the last year and a half had been pure agony and that she knew she deserved it but that she didn’t want to hurt anymore and wanted to know if I still wanted to be with her. I love her and I didn’t want to see her being crazy like this, I told her that I would end the relationship and that we would take it slow. Well I went to see this girl and I couldn’t do it. I just cant I like her too much I don’t want to break her heart because I know she likes me and I don’t want to break up with her and be thinking about her constantly and ruin any chances with her. So I dont know I appreciate if you made it all the way down here.
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