geminigirl Posted May 22, 2006 Posted May 22, 2006 Very long story, and I am new to this site... Well, I have been with my signifigant other for ten years, we have two children and have been going through a seperation for the past few years. I say years because it has been a slow deterioration of the relationship for a long time, and a few months ago it became more serious, we are still living in the same house, but in different rooms. We are only doing this temporarily until our lease expires and I can move out. Well, it has been pure hell. I feel like I am in a war zone on a daily basis and have been on the verge of a nervous breakdown for weeks. The reason being is that my sig other goes through a jekyl and hyde regarding how he feels about this on a daily basis, at times he says things to make me think he really understands, then he lashes out and gets angry and says the most horrible things in the world that make me hate him. I however have tried not to feed into these fits and periods of clarity as I know it could change at a drop of a hat. Well...last night, I had sex with him. I know that I shouldn't have done it, but i felt weak, and he was having a good day in terms of telling me all of the things I wanted to hear. The wierd thing is, is that I cried afterwards. He didn't see this, and today I feel horrible...I need some insight...
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