annabg Posted May 22, 2006 Posted May 22, 2006 Hi guys, I really would appreciate some feedback. My boyfriend and I have been dating for a year now. Everything has been going so well until about the tenth month when he started getting hostile with me, and for what reason? I did not know. He would tell me to leave him alone and scream at me in front of his friends, and when I do leave, he would start calling me and apologizing. I wasnt allowed to talk to my friends throughout our relationship and I felt so alone during that time. He would call me names and make fun of me, but I was too scared to leave because I thought he's the only one I have. This went on for about two months until one day he decided to break up with me again. I made a decision about "being smart" and trying to do something for myself for once. A week after, he started calling me and apologizing. After what he did, I was still being nice to him and I never told him to "leave me alone". I calmly told him that I would stay friends with him but I couldnt see myself with him, yet. I told him that we need sometime apart, especially me. He got angry and started "acting up". Then that's when he admitted to me that he cheated on me with his ex girlfriend two months prior. For some reason, I forgave him AND we started dating again. It was a one-night kinda thing and he swore to me that he will never do it again. He's being really nice to me.. actually, close to perfect, but until now I still can't get over the fact that he cheated. I don't understand why he did it. When I asked, he said he was just being dumb and he didn't know what he was doing. The worst part about the whole thing was his friends and the OW's friends knew about it. I hung out and talked to his friends when I'm with my boyfriend and somehow, I don't understand why nobody even had the decency to say something to me. Now, it has been a couple weeks since I found out, and it still bothers me. I still wonder what is wrong with me. I've been so self-conscious and I've been so angry all the time. I wake up with a heavy chest, and sleep the same way. I know it takes time to heal, but I feel like it's getting worse everyday. I know there's alot more to his story, but I just wanna move on and put this behind me. Did I make the right decision taking him back? Or could it be the thing that's making it worse?
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