radiation7740 Posted May 22, 2006 Posted May 22, 2006 I have come to the conclusion that it is absolutely wrong for me to desire any woman romantcially. I still have resdiual feelings for my ex but I don't want her to know that. Right now I don't desire anyone else & I pray that it stays that way. I've been in NC for 6 months with my ex. I am seeing things more clearly but some days I'm just dying to contact her. Other days I'm afraid to contact her. I believe women are creatures to stay away from & fear. The less women I come in contact with in my life the better it is for me. I wish I had never gotten involved in dating. If there is all this drama in the dating world then it would be better if I had a drug that I could take to kill my desire for women completely. I did hang out with this one girl as a friend for awhile. She wanted to take the relationship to the romantic level but I told her that I don't think it's a good idea. I told her I enjoy her compnay as a friend but that's all. Shortly after that she stopped hanging out with me. She wouldn't initiate calls anymore. It seems like it's hard to keep any female friends around if they want to be more than that and I'm not interested. Awhile back I said I would stay away from romantic relationships with women. Now I'm going to have to stay away from all women completely unless they are just looking for friendship alone. Why? Because I fear giving into the temptation of kissing her & making out with her if she opens that door. From now on I will do my best to avoid being alone with a female friend because I know I'll get tempted if she happens to open that door for romantic relationship. I was alone with the last girl that I turned down. The temptation was so strong when she talked about wanting to be bf/gf & she held my hand but I did not give in. I took her home as quickly as I could. It was not easy to decline her offer. I don't see why any woman would want to date me anyway. I've got nothing at all to give any woman a single reason for dating me. Now my friends and parents think I am handsome looking. Unfortunately you all can't be the judge of that since you don't know what I look like. Girls tell me I have a deep sexy voice. I personally don't like to hear myself talk. I'd rather write out my thoughts. My parents tell me I'm intelligent & that I'm a talented writer. My friends think the same way too. So they think I have alot to offer. I personally do not believe them.
Brittanyjean06 Posted May 22, 2006 Posted May 22, 2006 Sounds like someone needs a little bit of confidence! If you have confidence, you will attract someone so let me see a picture of you, I will tell you the flat out truth haha I'm sure your not bad looking at all!
Sand&Water Posted May 22, 2006 Posted May 22, 2006 That's okay, radiation. You're trying very hard to continue No Contact, and that's fine. I understand, that many people are not comfortable getting themselves out in the open world, and back into the dating scene. However, later on you'll have to deal with women. They're all around us. But, don't rush into anything you don't want to do. Listen to your heart. Take it one step at a time. All the people you love, will still love you even if you choose to live this life you described. Meanwhile, though, I recommend you do some journal writing. I think that's a great idea. I, myself, am trying to start up on writing. It's so soothing for the soul. And, yes I hate listening to my own voice too.
Author radiation7740 Posted May 22, 2006 Author Posted May 22, 2006 Sounds like someone needs a little bit of confidence! If you have confidence, you will attract someone so let me see a picture of you, I will tell you the flat out truth haha I'm sure your not bad looking at all! I don't believe that confidence or the lack of it has anything to do with it. Confidence alone is not enough.
Author radiation7740 Posted May 22, 2006 Author Posted May 22, 2006 That's okay, radiation. You're trying very hard to continue No Contact, and that's fine. I understand, that many people are not comfortable getting themselves out in the open world, and back into the dating scene. However, later on you'll have to deal with women. They're all around us. But, don't rush into anything you don't want to do. Listen to your heart. Take it one step at a time. All the people you love, will still love you even if you choose to live this life you described. Meanwhile, though, I recommend you do some journal writing. I think that's a great idea. I, myself, am trying to start up on writing. It's so soothing for the soul. And, yes I hate listening to my own voice too. I don't see how I will have to deal with women later on unless I want to. Aside from the workplace I don't see how it will be unavoidable. Besides in my line of work I have limited contact with people anyway.
Author radiation7740 Posted May 22, 2006 Author Posted May 22, 2006 http://us.f2.yahoofs.com/bc/401de549_d9b3/bc/My+Documents/me+and+girma.jpg?bfUlTcEBmV3SZ_bo Here is a picture of me and my ex.
MadDog Posted May 22, 2006 Posted May 22, 2006 http://us.f2.yahoofs.com/bc/401de549_d9b3/bc/My+Documents/me+and+girma.jpg?bfUlTcEBmV3SZ_bo Here is a picture of me and my ex. I think it was your shirt that did you in.
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